Lauren Jauregui Imagines

Who is she?

"Come on Grace! I told you to catch the ball not hit the ball! What's wrong with you?" Our ma, Lauren yelled angrily. I let out a breath watching my sister and her teammates get yelled at by ma as they practice softball. I never understood why Grace likes playing softball when she knows if she makes one big mistake, she'll get yelled at and I mean hardcore yelled at....is that even a thing?

I hear snickers behind me which I look over my shoulder to see my two other siblings sitting right behind me with grins on their faces watching Grace get yelled at. They loved it but it was funny because Grace loved it when they got yelled at.

"Hush you two." Our Mama, Camila told them, the boys immediately shut up.

Let me tell you something, my whole family is all about sports, all about it but me, I'm not, I'm actually more into music. My mama supports me but ma really doesn't, she thinks it's a waste of time and it makes me wonder if she even loves me. I think she has her favorites and that's all my siblings expect me, yup, that's how I feel. Ma is a coach and has been into sports since she was 10. She had played softball her whole life, she's great at it and could of become a professional softball player but no, she had a big accident with her ankle and was told that if she ever played softball again, she would never be able to walk again.

"Come on guys! Really?" I hear her yell making me snap out of my thoughts. I hated being here watching them suffer, it makes me feel like I'm suffering too. I glance over at Mama who's watching with her bottom lip between her teeth. She's worried, like always.

I huff crossing my arms against my chest looking back at the team. It was almost 8 and I was ready to go home and sleep. Next time they have practice, I'm staying home.

A few hours later, practice was over...thank god. We were all in the car and it was completely silence. Weird right? But it was always like this, nobody talked, all you could hear is the radio play.

I glance over at Grace who was on her phone, as well as the boys, mama's eyes on the road and ma staring out the window quietly probably still angry about the practice. I never really got sports, never did. I was the youngest and I guess ma expected more from me, but once she founded out that I wanted to get into music she immediately freak out. We aren't the same anymore, it's more like if we are just strangers living under the same roof. Mama is pretty upset with, even try's to talk ma out of it but there is no use, she just isn't the mom she was before and I fucking hate that.

We finally arrived home and everyone got our of the car heading towards the house. I walked right behind Jason and Leo, followed by Grace and Mama. Ma was the first one inside the house heading up stairs without a word.

"I don't get why she's still mad, it was just practice." Grace says putting her things down by the door.

"You know how your mom is honey, she can be, you know...a bit out there." Mama smiled sadly at Grace. I shook my head walking into the kitchen to find Leo leaning against the counter with a water bottle in his hands.

"Guess what?" He asked me.

"What?"

"My friend Jermey said there would be try outs for soccer this Monday if your interested."

I sighed softly shaking my head opening the refrigerator.

"Come on Y/N, you always do this. Like what the hell man." I hear Jason say, "it's like your not even our sister, it's-you don't-"

"Belong here." Leo finishes. I bite the inside of my cheek.

"Whatever." I mumbled walking out of the kitchen and into the living room to see Grace on the couch with her phone in her hand.

"You don't! You know it! You never wanna do anything that goes with sports, like are you adopted or something?"

"Leo? Shut up." I hear Grace tell Leo. "She's not adopted you ass." They all three started to argue about me and it started to irritate me. I wanted to leave up stairs, no I was actually going to leave up stairs but stop when ma block my way staring at me with those green eyes of hers. She stared at me like if she didn't even know me and that hurt me. It hurt so much I looked away hoping she would move out of my way but she didn't, I felt her eyes burning through my fucking soul.

"She's not my sister if she's not like us!" Was yelled making the house go completely silent.

"What did you say Leo Cabello-Jauregui?" I hear Mama voice crack a bit from downstairs. I stood there breathing in and out not being able to move, I really didn't think my own brothers would say that, I thought thy supported me like Mama. "Leo? What did you say?"

"I-I-"

My shoulder was suddenly push pass by her. "Camila don't- he didn't mean it."

"Ma, I-I did mean it though."

"Leo-"

"I'm sorry but you are right, music isn't going to get you through life! It's stupid and a dumb thing to do in life! Music is bullshit and will crash her dreams, I bet you guys that once she tries, she gonna fail. She's not my fucking sister if she doesn't do what we do! She's nothing like us, that's why I'm telling you that she's adopted, she doesn't belong-"

"That's enough Leo!" I hear Mama yelled.

"Camila-"

"Don't tell me you agree with this Lauren! She's your daughter!"

"Yeah but how is music going to get her thought life huh? How is-"

"She'll figure it out! She's a smart girl!"

"From the looks of it, she's not! She is not my daughter if she doesn't-" after hearing her say that my world crash down. Hearing my own mother say that about her daughter makes me feel unloved, useless, not worth it, ugly, ashamed, etc. It made me feel a lot of things I can't even describe...I just knew I needed to leave this house immediately.

Next thing I knew I was crying in aunt D's arms. She had her arms wrap around me holding me rocking me back and forth trying to calm me down.

"It's okay Y/N...it's okay." She kept repeating into my ear. I was so upset, I really didn't think she would say the things she said and agree to the things I never thought she would agree to.....

The door burst open making me look up to see Mama standing there with tears streaming down her face, "thank god your okay, I thought you ran away." She cried. I moved out of Dinah's arms and into mama's. "It's okay baby, I'm here. It's going to be okay." I only cry harder wishing this was all a dream.

My own mother hated me, didn't even love me....who is she?