Blue Eyes {Joey Graceffa Fanfic}

Choice

Disclaimer: 

My computer messed up on me! This chapter is supposed to go after hero. So yay extra chapter! So sorry!

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Emilys POV:

Emily: I feel hopeless at this point. I don't know what to do.

Joey: Em, everything is going to be ok. Sawyer is going to pull through. I know your Dad would not want you to give up on him. It is going to be alright.

Emily: What if it is not? What is he doesn't wake up. At this point he is the closest thing I have to family.

Joey: What about your Mom?

Emily: Joey I haven't told you much from my past and I plan to keep it that way.

Joey: Why are you keeping things from me? You know you can trust me.

Emily: I kniw I can and I do.

Joey: Then why won't you tell me?

Emily: Sometimes things are better left unsaid. I really don't want to talk about right now. I also have a few questions for you.

Joey: Go ahead and ask.

Emily: Why in the hell did you jump infront of me. 

Joey: I wanted to protect you. I wasn't going to let her shoot you not if I had a chance to save you. You were the idiot that jumoed infront me.

He smiled.

Emily: Joey don't you see it?

Joey: See what?

Emily: It seems everything I touch or love crumbles. 

Joey: Emily thats...

Emily: Its true Joey its true. You and I both know it. You will never admit it to my face. I love you and I always hurt you. I forgot you, you almost killed yourself over me, you cut yourself over me and you were willing to get killed for me. I am a death trap with two legs.

Joey: That is not true.

Emily: Yes it is! For god freaking sakes Joey! The closet thing I had to a real family just took a bullet for me. Do you know how that feels? 

Joey: I don't know Emily! I can't really help you with the whole family thing considering you don't trust me enough to tell me.

Emily: I do trust you! I don't want to bring you into that part of my life Joey!

Joey: You don't get to pick and choose what I see about your life and what I don't. That is not how this works. I want to see your whole story. I didn't fall inlove with just a little part of you. Listen, if we are going to get married and have a future then you are going to have to tell me. If you don't, I don't think I can go any further with you at this point.

Emily: Joey I....

Joey: I need someone who can trust me! Somebody who will not hide their past. I will give you some time to think about it.

Joey gets up and heads for the elvetor. He turns back.

Joey: Goodbye Emily.

I looked at him with tears in my eyes. I get up and walk into Sawyers room. I realize that Joey and I were making a huge scene so I knida wanted to hide myself at this point. I sit in the chair that I have been sitting for hours. I look at Sawyer.

Emily: I screw everything up.

Sawyer: Thats so untrue.

Emily: Sawyer!

Sawyer: Hey blondie!

I give him a huge hug.

Emily: You are such an idiot.

Sawyer: You saved me first. I was returing the favor.

Emily: That is to big of a favor for a girl like me.

Sawyer: Nonsense! So what are you not telling Joey?

Emily: What?

Sawyer: The lobby could here that conversation. I heard it all loud and clear.

Emily: I am hiding my past. I don't want him to see what it was like for me growing up. That is part of my life I am trying to keep in the shadows.

Sawyer: Emily?

Emily: What?

Sawyer: Do you love Joey?

Emily: Yes, with all my heart!

Sawyer: Is Joey your future?

Emily: Yes!

Sawyer: Well if you want him to be the future then you are going to have to explain the past.

Emily: I don't want to.

Sawyer: Emily don't be stupid. He loves you. You let him walk away. you don't hurt who you love you heal them. You healed me. You need to tell him. If you are ever going to have a chance then you can't keep secrets.

Emily: What ever happened to the past is in the past?

Sawyer: Well if you want your future you gotta tell the past.

Emily: I hate you.

Sawyer: Why? 

Emily: Because you are right.

Sawyer: I try!

Emily: What do I do now?

Sawyer: Explain, tell him or in other words go after him! He isn't far. You would be suprised. 

Emily: Ok, I am going to go find him. Will you be alright?

Sawyer: There is a bunch of hot nurses here. I will be fine right here.

Emily: Typical Sawyer!

Sawyer: Go after him!

I run to the evelvator and head to the Lobby. I finally get out and I pass the waiting area. Then I stop and there is Joey. Well Sawyer was right he doesn't go far.

Emily: Joey?

Joey: Yes Emily?

Emily: I am sorry. I should have told you.

Joey: I don;t know what to do at this point. I feel untrusted.

Emily: You feel untrusted? I trust you so much that I decied 24 hours ahead to get married to you. I knew you were the one for me so I was fine with the whole lets get it all said and done. I love you.

Joey: I love you to, but if you don't trust me..

Emily: Joey, I do I do I do! I will explain. I am not very good with lets talk about my crappy childhood!

Joey: Fine sit.

Emily: I always grew up in a broken home. When my Dad died my Mom resulted to pills. Along with much verbal abuse as well. I never really saw how a man should treat a woman. That is why I stuck with Eric so long. I was friends with Eric for a long time. My Dad even knew him. My Mom was never there. She missed my graduataion. She would never ever cook or clean. I was just ignored like I was never there. I told her when I was 15 that she needed help. She flipped out an threw a glass bottle at my head. I have a scrare behind my right ear. I got depressed I cut. I slowly died inside. She found me cutting when I was 17 and asked me why? I said because of how cruel she was to me. She ignored me evn more after that. When I was 20 I told her I was getting married. I said she could come to the wedding on one condititon, she had to get help. She did get help. She is a lot better. I didn't want to leave Eric mainly so she would stay with the treatment. I wasted four years of my life on a guy so my Mom could get better. I am ashemed of her. Thats why I didn't want you to meet her. I didn't want you to think I would be like that when I get older. I knew if you thought that you would have ran away from me. Not looking bad.

Joey: I could never run away from you. My heart is belongs to you. Only you.

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