Blue Eyes {Joey Graceffa Fanfic}

Feelings Pour Out

Emilys POV:

Emily: What happened?

Joey: Jessica, Jessica happened.

Emily: Well I know that. What did she do?

Joey: She was just a bitch I don't want to get into detal.

Emily: Joey, just calm down.

Joey: Emily, don't you see what she has done? She keeps running our lives. I don't know how you can forgive her like that.

Emily: I never said I forgave her.

Joey: Well you might as well say it because you are making it sound like what she has done is not bad.

Emily: Joey I know that she has done some pretty bad things but I...

Joey: Bad? She has done more then bad. Don't you get it? She tried to kill you!

Emily: Don't you think I know that!

I yell.

Emily: I am well freakin aware she tried to kill me Joey. I almost lost everything that mattered to me. I forgot about you completley. Like I never met you. For christ sake you went and cut yourself. How do you think that makes me feel? The fact that I am the one who causes you to commit sucide and cut is not a good feeling. I don't want to be the reason for your pain Joey. It seems that I always am. I reject you forget you and leave you. Who the hell does that? So Joey, ya I hate Jesssica. I hate myself for that matter. I make you suffer. I put you through pain. When Eric said I was worthless I beleived it. I still do.

I strom out with tears in my eyes. I hurt the ones I love. I ruin their lives. I am basically worthless. I drive to the woods for a piece of mind. I arrive and bolt out of my car. I run into the forest. I just keep running. Thats all I want to do. I finally stop at a bench placed for a trail. I sit down and hold me head in my hands ad cry. This life is just to much. I just need a break. I have finally vracked. I have finally gone insane. Joey helped me keep my sanity but that is now gone. All hope is lost in my heart right now. Tears flow down my checks. I feel a hand on my shoulder and see Joey. He followed me. He sits next to me and wraps me in his arms.

Joey: Em, it is my turn to poor out my feelings.

As he explains I still sobb.

Joey: Emily Lace you are anything but worthless. The fact that you could think that just is unbeliveable. If anybody calls you worthless again I will punch them out. Emily I am sorry that I got so mad. I was more mad then you. I should have cooled down. Jessica tried to take you away from me it is not easy to think that someone would want to do that. It was not you fault that I cut or tried to kill myself. It was mine I went completely against you moto and I gave up. You show me the silver lining in every cloud. You bring out the happiness in the world. I look into your eyes and it spreads hope and warmth through out my whole body. I love you please now it is your turn to calm down.

Emily: Joey I don't forgive Jessica. I never have and I never will. I try to ignore the bad and forgive. If I didn't forgive and forget I wouldn't be alive today. I have to look at the bright side to keep me going. I love you Joey but I feel as if everyone Iove I hurt.

Joey: You don't hurt you heal. You are my hero in life.

Emily: You are mine.

I kiss him on the lips. 

Joey: Did you want to go home?

Emily: No, the stars are amazing at night in L.A. we should stay here and watch the sunset. After all you promised me to walk into the sunset hand in hand. Laughing possibly singing

Joey: You heard that?

Emily: Yep!

Joey: Wow, how did you end up getting you memory back?

Emily: I looked into the sunset.

Joey: Shut the hell up.

Emily: No it is true.

Joey: Wow we should have done that in the first place.

Emily: Well it made an awesome way to say yes. You answer the door I say yes and you are like, what?

We both laugh.

Joey: I was completely out of it if you couldn't tell.

Emily: Hey I think I was out of it more.

Joey: I will let you win that battle.

Emily: So what did Jessica end up saying?

Joey: She didn't know you got you memory back. So I got to rub her face with that. She will never be looked at the same even if she does get out of jail she will never be an actress again because no one will hire her. The cop even said I was the first one to visit and that she was pretty hated.

Emily: Well she can die there for all I care.

Soon the sunsets and the stars come out.

Joey: The stars are so amazing nothing compared to you.

Emily: I actually have a star. It might be here.

Joey: It is probably the brightess one out there.

Emily: Maybe. Wanna know a secret.

Joey: What?

Emily: You are lost oor we are apart we should both look at the moon.

Joey: Why?

Emily: Because we will both be looking at the same one.

He smiles.

Joey: I never  thought of that. The things I learn from you. What about the sun.

Emily: I don't suggest looking into the sun Joey.

Joey: Oh, you know what I meant.

I kiss him one more time.

Emily: It is getting dark we should get going.

Joey: I agree.

We both go back to are cars. After all we did not ride together. We drive home and go straight to bed. I cuddle up to him and reflect on my tear-filled day with lots of feelings pouring out. But at the end of the day I am in my bed with the man I love. Life can't get better then that.

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Authors Note:

Thank you guys so much for reading! So this chapter was basically a filler. I am low on ideas so if you have any let me know through my social stuff below! Also give me some feedback on the book! Do you like hate not care? Also thinking in the future, do you want a sequel? Let me know! Sorry for not really editing I have been really busy with school and midterms coming up. You know that whole mumbo jumbo that know one wants to here about. Any way still going strong with posting daily though! On this book anyway. Don't forget to vote, comment and follow.

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