d i a r y • Murdoc x 2D

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this is the only thing i can trust.
my name is Stuart Pot, also known
as 2D from Gorillaz. for the past 3-4
years , Murdoc (bass guitarist of the band) and i have been together. well, not exactly together. you see, Murdoc and i are what people would refer to as "friends with benefits" , Murdoc isn't really a friend to say. Usually during tour he's either hitting me, screaming at me. . . or kissing me.

both of us promised to not ever tell anyone about this. he's afraid we'll get hate and that our 'fame' will go "downhill" whatever that means. he also said that we wouldn't fall in love with each other because it was "weird". it wasn't more of a promise but more as rules to me at least.
Well.

I broke one of the 'rules'

for the past 2 years of our "friends with benefits" thing, i began having feelings towards him. for most people they would fine it pretty disgusting. we were having a podcast about how Gorillaz was started. in a line Murdoc said i looked like "the perfect pretty boy for the band" i tried my hardest not to think about it. but how could i? after the podcast was when we had our "us time"

Whenever i say our "us time" i basically mean we had sex. after that he would just leave me there asleep and go out to bars or smoke weed by himself.

basically yeah, i have a crush on my band mate who i also have sex with.
I just wish he'd feel the same way about me too.

i don't care if he hits me
or calls me 'face ache'
i still love him.