Why Do We Fall

Chapter 11

Octavia's POV

"Lincoln is dead because of you Bellamy he offered you to come with him but you rejected him!" I yell as Bellamy told me that Lincoln is dead.

"Octavia I'm sorry but-" Bellamy says but I interrupt him.

"Why? Why didn't you go with him Bellamy?" I ask Bellamy.

I look at Bellamy's face and he tried to speak but fails too. "Some brother you are you can't even speak." I say to my big brother.

I leave my brother's tent and I run towards Derek's tent. When I entered his tent he jumped to his feet and his smile almost takes away the sadness I'm feeling.

"You okay?" He asks me as I lean in for a hug.

"No I'm not okay" I say back as we continue to hug.

"I found out Lexa doesn't love me anymore, well I don't remember much of her so it doesn't matter much." Derek said as he lets go of me.

"Yeah well beat this Lincoln is dead" I said as I look into Derek's eyes.

"I can't beat that because I don't know him." He replied.

  I went to go sit down by the small fire in his tent. Before I got to sit down I was turn around to face Derek and then he kissed me. I was taken by surprise but then kissed back. I slowly began taking off Derek's shirt and he did the same.

This moment made me happy I had forgotten about Lincoln. I felt eager to continue but of course I heard rustling outside of the tent.

"Octavia you in there? You okay?"  Clarke asks me as I pull away from the kiss.

"Yeah I'm-I'm-I'm good" I reply stuttering as I put on my shirt.

"OH MY GOD?" Clarke exclaims as she sees me and Derek putting on our shirts.

"Clarke don't tell anyone" Derek demands as he puts on his shirt.

"Alright but I gotta tell you-" Clarke said as she gets interrupted.

"Yeah I know Lexa doesn't love me, truth is I don't remember much of her." Derek says coldly.

"Wow so you don't love her anymore?" Clarke replies as a sly smile creeps up on her face.

Clarke rushes out of the tent which surprises me. I look over to Derek and he just stares into my eyes like I'm his world. I love this feeling that I'm getting when he stares at me like this.

The next morning.

Yesterday I was sad but when I went to see Derek I just forgot about my problems. He makes me happy and last night was great which also made him happy.

"Good morning beautiful" I hear Derek say as I'm pulled out of my thoughts.

"Good morning" I reply back as he kisses me.

"So after last night what are we?" He asks as I look at the sun through the tent.

"Well I care about you but I'm not sure what your feelings are toward me" I said as I revert my gaze from the sun light and look at Derek.

"Well I remember you and I cared about before Lexa but I hid it because you loved Lincoln. I wanted you but I was sure you didn't like me." Derek said as he places a hand under my chin and softly makes me gaze into his eyes.

I look at his right arm which is full of tattoos. His chest has some tattoos, and on his forearm it says "Wanheda" and "May We Meet Again" I'm guessing those tattoos must have meaning if he got them.

I know he's Wanheda so that is a meaning for that tattoo. That "may we meet again" tattoo has a meaning to us from the Ark.

"You should've just came to me if you liked me Derek" I reply back as I trail my fingers across his tattoos.

"I really should've haven't I?" He says back to as he stops my hand.

"OH MY GOD" Clarke said as she walks into the tent.

"Uh " I reply back to Clarke.

"Um" is all Derek says.

"Well I totally love this so far" Raven says as she walks in on us.

"Wow you too?" Derek as he scoffs at Raven's comment.

"Well is he good in bed?" Raven asks me.

"I'm leaving" Clarke says to us all as she leaves the tent.

I blushed when Raven asked me if he was good in bed. I mean yeah he is I mean he's a guy so I guess he should be? I mean he's definitely better then Lincoln.

"Uh yes" I reply back as I hide under the blankets.

"Well well well I'll have to try him then" Raven replies to me.

"No Raven you won't" Derek says to Raven.

"I tried oh well and Octavia he rejected the offer he's all yours" Raven says playfully to me.

When Raven leaves I get up from under the blankets and stand up. When I stand up I see Derek already dressed he gets ready fast. After about a minute I'm fully dressed and Derek and I leave the tent.

Lexa's POV

When I woke up this morning I heard Octavia's voice in Derek's tent. I felt happy because he'd be heart broken if he remembered me. On the other hand I had a burning love for Clarke she makes me happy and this baby I'm carrying I'm gonna raise it with Clarke if she's into girls.

I mean it's weird to raise her brothers baby isn't it? I don't think that's weird because under some circumstances it's necessary. Like now Derek doesn't remember me which leads me to believe that he doesn't know he's gonna be a father.

"Hey Clarke you look beautiful today" I say to Clarke as I see her sitting by the fire.

"You look beautiful too Lexa" she replies back.

"Lexa...I don't think I love Bellamy anymore I've got feelings toward someone else here." Clarke adds.

"Why don't you love Bellamy?" I asks

"Well this certain person has caught my attention and I don't wanna lose that person" Clarke said as she looks at my hand.

I look to my right and I see Octavia laughing and Derek smiling. Last night I was if-y to tell Derek the truth but now I can tell he's got feelings for Octavia and I don't wanna mess that up so I'm keeping it his way.

I look over to Derek and realized that he didn't have a eyepatch anymore. He looks better without it and his eye his healed now which is great.

"My brother had his eye patch off for a few days lex" Clarke says as she continues to look at my hand.

"Um Clarke I know I just left your brother but I'd like to take you to my secret house" I say castle but just enough so Clarke can hear it.

"Really? I mean that would be great" Clarke says as she looks into my eyes.

"Yeah it'll be fun Clarke just me and you" I say as I cross my arms over my chest and gaze into the fire.