Why Do We Fall

Chapter 10

Lexa's POV

I laughed loudly when Clarke said a funny joke. It made me feel a bunch of stuff but I can't help but to look into her beautiful blue eyes. It's been a week since Derek's finger was cut off he still makes stupid jokes to everyone about his finger.

  "Derek you doing okay?" Octavia asks.

"Why wouldn't I be? I mean I only lost a finger." Derek says back playfully.

"Ha ha very funny" Octavia says as she brightly smiles at him.

  Then I see Derek smile back it makes me jealous that he smiled back at Octavia. I noticed I flirted with Clarke yesterday and she flirted with me today.

"Hey Clarke um I need to speak with you and Lexa" Bellamy says as comes up behind me and Clarke.

"Why? What's wrong Bellamy?" Clarke asks.

"Derek and I made a deal with the mountain men." Bellamy says as he looks down at the ground.

"What? Why?" Clarke and I say together.

"To leave us alone but...they injected him with a set of engineered genes that enhances his strength, and reflexes it also enhances his personality and feelings toward other people. It won't kill him or harm him Cage said." Bellamy explains.

"So you mean my brother is basically better then the average human with strength, reflexes and emotions." Clarke says to Bellamy as she rolls her eyes.

That would explain why his eyes got more brownish and more blue. The Heterochromia gene was more enforced into his gene pool by seems of it. What bothers me is that this 'injection' of genes and stuff it enhances his emotions toward others.

"Hey" Derek says as he turns our way.

"Hi" we all say together.

"Derek...remember that deal?" Bellamy says to Derek.

"Yes and I'm guessing you told them?" Derek answers.

"Yeah and gather the rest of us Octavia, it's time we came clean with the things they did to you." Bellamy spoke.

I'm worried about what they did to Derek but I can tell by the look on Clarke's and Octavia's face that they are more worried than me.

"You doing okay Clarke?" I ask Clarke as I walk over toward her.

"Yeah...yeah I'm fine...it's just my brother he can be stupid sometimes" she answers back.

"That he can be" I say back and sit next to her.

"Okay since everyone is here it's time we tell you what mount weather did to Derek. Well they offered us the deal but Derek and I think they won't keep it. It's worth a shot though." Bellamy speaks to us all.

"What did they do to Derek?" Octavia asks in a scared voice.

I wonder if Lincoln will return because he's been gone for at least four days. He told us that he'd gone to look for some supplies from the Ark.

"Yeah I'm fine Octavia" Derek says reassuringly to Octavia.

"Uh..I'm just worried about you" Octavia replies back as she looks into Derek's eyes.

"You okay lex?" Clarke says worriedly.

"I'm fine Clarke" I lied to Clarke but she doesn't need to know what I feel right now. I really feel jealous because I don't give Derek much attention, Octavia gives attention somehow I wish it was me that did.

I look over to my left again and see Derek smiling at Octavia. Then she smiles back at him I see Bellamy in the corner of my eye and I see his blank expression turn into a smile. I'm curious what he's smiling about it might be about Octavia and Derek or something I'd better not question Bellamy.

Octavia POV

So after last night when I heard about what they did to Derek I am just really worried about him. I feel weird when he looks into my eyes or even when he smiles. I like the way he makes me feel when he speaks to me or looks at me or even smiles at me Lincoln used to make me get this feeling but now I don't get anymore from him.

I wonder Lexa is doing me and her just don't get along well. I wish we would but I guess we weren't meant to be friends. I can tell she's closer to Clarke more then ever I'm also questioning that.

"Octavia get Clarke Derek is bleeding badly!" Bellamy yells from outside of tent Derek made us.

As soon as I heard the distress I'm Bellamy's voice I took off into the hut. I felt sick because Bellamy said Derek is bleeding badly.

"Clarke! Derek needs you he's bleeding badly!" I yell as I swung the door open.

"Okay Octavia I'll get my medical supplies" Clarke answer back.

I rush my way back to Bellamy and Derek is looking confused. Like he doesn't know what happened it's weird. Derek is just laying down on the ground with his blood pouring out of his head.

"Who are you?" Derek asks confusedly to Bellamy.

"Derek don't play games you hit your head don't move, Clarke is coming." Bellamy answers back.

"What how do you know my name?" Derek responds.

"Derek don't move you'll be okay" I say as tears stream out of my eyes.

"Octavia can you tell me what happened?" Derek asks me.

"That's Bellamy. He's your best friend, and" I was cut off by Clarke.

"Oh my god Derek. Okay..okay Octavia go" Clarke says to me.

I don't want to leave Derek's side but I turned around and ran into my tent. When I entered my tent I started to tear up "no no this is not me" I say to myself as I try not to cry.

Then my tears just started to o leave my eyes and it was harder to control not to cry. I just cried since I couldn't hold it in.

"Octavia" Bellamy and Clarke say to me as they enter my tent without me knowing.

"Yeah?" I question them as I clean up the tears on my face.

"You care about him don't you" Clarke asks me.

"Yeah I do Clarke. I care about him a lot." I say as I look up at them.

"I understand Octavia." Lexa says as she comes out from behind Clarke and Bellamy.

My stomach sank as I heard Lexa's voice I'm sure as hell shes gonna wanna fight me. Well I am not going down without a fight.

"Octavia...I don't love Derek anymore" Lexa says as she looks at Clarke.

"So you mean you don't love Derek? Derek is wonderful he would do anything for you or any us Lexa." I say to Lexa.

"I know that Octavia, but Clarke told me he may not remember me but if he doesn't I'd like to leave it like that." Lexa said to all three of us.

I don't have to worry about Lexa anymore but oh my good I forgot Lincoln. How could I be this stupid Lincoln hasn't come back yet.

"Bellamy can you and Clarke go to the ark to see if Lincoln is still there?" I ask.

"Of course" Bellamy smiles at me father speaking.

Rarely he smiles now but I like it when Bellamy smile. Bellamy is great and all but he can be a dick. I still can't understand why Lincoln hasn't come back yet.