-Kat-
I sat in the hospital bed with Cassidy in the bed beside me, we were both being induced today. Which was good since it's beginning of June. The last few weeks have been hard. Every thing seems to be getting better. Im sure its an illusion, just waiting to snap us awake. Its a magic trick, a lie. Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing. Last night was amazing watching Frank play in his band was mezmerising. Seeing how much he loved music made me realize that he can't become a rock star with a kid on his arm. This is the toughest choice I've ever had to make. He needed to be free. The golden ring with a small crystal stone in the middle taunted me and my decisions. My heart sinking into a black hole.
I sat in the bed, an iv line leading into my hand, monitors wired to my body. My now long dark hair clumped over my shoulder, I sat in a white gown. It made my body look pail as the cold air seeped up my legs. My gaze ran up to Frank, who was sitting beside me. His eyes tired and weary, his face looked older and less cheeky. His hand in mine as we awaited for Penelope's arrival. I felt my nod freeze as I saw my mom and sister come into the room. My mom looked older and worn down, while my thirteen year old sister looked lively and filled with glee. My mom isn't a huge fan of Frank but she knows I love him. I smiled at them sweetly. My sister looked worried and concerned. I knew she needed to talk to me. I needed to get rid of my mom. I sighed deeply and grinned up at her.
"How are you doing sweetie?" She asked in a mothering tone. I smiled again.
"Um, I'm fine. Hungry." I technically didn't lie. I was hungry, but vie been sick all day so I'm unsure weather to eat. My mom looked from me to Frank quickly.
"Let me guess, nachos, extra cheese, little salsa, jalapenos?" She knew what my pregnant menu by heart. I smiled and nodded sweetly. Frank smiled widely.
"Cola, extra ice." He added. I love it when he goes James Bond. It makes him sexy. My mom nodded and went away to get some food. I turned my attention to Ren, my little sister. She remained in the corner of the room quietly.
"Dude, what's wrong?" I asked intent on figuring out what was on her mind. She shrugged and made a face. I looked at Frank and Ray and sighed. I'm glad Sarah, Wren and Holly were at home. They do have kids. I'm still sad we all moved back in with our parents.
"Frank, Ray can we have a moment?" I asked softly. They looked at each other and nodded. Cass smiled and kissed Ray sweetly before they both vanished into the hall.
My attention was turned back to Ren. She looked worried.
"Now what's up buttercup?" I questioned. She shrugged and sighed deeply.
"Matt wants me to put out." Her words stabbed me in the heart. I sighed and rubbed my head. Cassidy looked worried for my sanity.
"No, you're not having sex. Not now. Do it when you're married." I warned harshly. Her expression was showing she was utterly pissed off with me.
"How old were you when you lost it?" She asked harshly, her voice almost a snarl. I shook my head swiftly. She got me there. I was thirteen when I gave it to Frank in the back seat of an old car.
"That doesn't matter. Ren if you really want to do it make damn sure you're protected. Use condoms and the pill." I was saddened by the words I spoke.
"But if you do decide to lose it don't let it be in the back seat of a car. It's supposed to be special." I added with a soft tone. She looked at the ground and frowned, I knew what that meant. She already done it.
"You're not pregnant, are you?" I asked softly. Her eyes widened as she shook her head violently. I felt better knowing this.
