~Kat~
Senior year, it's finally here. This time last year I imagined myself going to parties and being a normal teenager. I didn't imagine myself getting married with a baby in my arms. I didn't imagine my clique of friends all being parents. It's scary but we stuck together and whoever sticks together through all that are meant to be together.
I sighed and smiled to the camera. My room went from an anti social teenager's room to a room suitable for a baby. I sat in my swivle chair with my glasses on, hair up. I sat in black sweats the were rolled up to my knees and a grey tank top. Frank had Penelope at his mom's house for the day. She looked just like her dad
"Hey Penny! It's you mommy!" I said cheerfully.
"In two weeks it'll be a year since I found out I was pregnant. I'm making this video as a re-cap of the last year." I uttered.
"I remember the day I found out I was pregnant. I wasn't shocked but I was surprised." I said remembering the moment I found out.
~Week 1~
I paced anxiously in the bathroom of my house. My nerves were shocked while I waited the results of the test. I knew the answer but I needed to know for sure. I didn't bother getting dressed since I'm staying in today. So I stood there in my long plade PJ pants with a 'Live Long and Prosper' tee shirt. My short black hair messy. I was so tired and my body hurt. I sighed and rubbed my eyes as I gazed upon a little plus sign on the test. I felt the tears run down my face as I realized I'm not a kid anymore. I'm a parent now. I rolled up my shirt to see my pail belly, I smiled down at me with a sweet smile.
"I loved you for all the wrong reasons. As you may know mommy and daddy love eachother very much but I was afraid some other girl would come in and take him away from me. So I got pregnant so he would stay. But as time went on I began to love you more for all the right reasons." I said bluntly. These memories made me feel like crap. Knowing that I loved this little girl for all the wrong reasons made me feel like a horrible mother. If I still loved her that way I wouldn't even declare myself a mother. I shook away this dreadful feeling then smiled.
"I remember telling your aunts. They weren't to happy to find out who your daddy is." I muttered softly.
~Week 2~
Sitting in the park on that cool September's day. Today was the day I told everyone. After what happened with Holly and Frank, I haven't talked to either of them since. Longest I've gone without talking to Holly. I'm not mad at her, I'm just hurt. I swung peacefully on the swings with Cassidy beside me. Wren, Holly and Sarah are on thier way. I saw the three girls come down the path slowly. I could feel my legs push me over to Holly. I was feeling like shit for neglecting my best friend. I felt her arms wrap around me tightly as she cried into my shoulder.
"I'm so sorry Kitty." She said over and over. I knew what she meant by that. She wasn't just sorry for sleeping with my boyfriend in my bed but she was sorry she was pregnant with my boyfriend's baby. I sighed and pulled away. She was cry hard and loud. She had so many tears down her face. I brushed her hair from her face and smiled.
"It's okay. I am too." I announced.
"You are what?" Sarah asked bluntly. I sighed and looked over at her. She was giving me a smug expression.
"I'm pregnant and Frank's the father." I announced. She looked like she was about to faint. I got my ear chewed off about it but I didn't care because I was happy.
I sighed and looked at the floor, my messy floor. My heart thumped hard against my chest as so many memories came to my mind. Some I cherished but others I'd rather leave unsaid and forgotten. I sighed and smiled at the camera.
