~Kat ~
I smiled and rocked back and forth in my bed. Little Penelope cradled in my arms. Her rosy lips pursed as she slept. The song in the back ground played quietly. It was middle of the day and the sun was shining into my room. I smiled and twirled a lock of her hair around my finger.
"Your mommy had made some amount of mistakes in her life." I uttered softly. My mind was taken back to when I first lost it. I was so stupid to do that at such a young age.
~3 years earlier~
I rocked out as we watched a local band play wildly at a pub nearby. Frank jumped and rocked out beside me. His hair flying everywhere. I could feel his hands around my waist seductively. Frank’s cousin put this together on a week’s notice. Talented guy, since the place was packed and the bands were amazing. I jumped around in a pair of jean and a Misfits tee shirt. My short black hair bounced around as my body was thrown around like a rag doll. I could barely move but when I did it was wild and out of control. I was surprised my mom let me come to see them play. When Frank invited me to come see them I was in shock. Tonight, this moment right now, right here was magical. I wonder if losing your virginity is like this. The band’s music was pure seduction.
“Come with me.” I heard Frank yell in my ear, his voice barely noticeable over the music. I smiled as I felt his hands touched mine, his fingers intertwining with mine. He pulled me through the crowd as off to the side of the stage where his cousin stood, broad and tall. Frank whispered something in his cousin’s ear causing his cousin to look at me and smile before giving Frank something. Frank pulled me out the exit and into a parking lot which was dark. The cool night’s air swirled around me. Frank led me to an old run down van parker in the far corner of the lot. It was the type of van a rapist would use. It was large and black. The windows were tainted. Frank smiled and opened the door. I pulled my eye brows together confusedly.
“What’s going-.” My words were interrupted by Frank’s soft hot lips crushing mine as he fell into me. I could feel them longing for love and passion. He made me feel alive and happy. I felt his hands pull me closer to his body. We fit damn near perfectly. Our bodies pressed together. My fingers were tangled in his sweaty hair while his were climbing up my shirt. They were cold on my warm skin. They sent me reeling. I pulled away when I caught my mind again. I smiled at his cheeky expression.
“Are you trying to seduce me?” I asked softly. Frank nodded and smiled. I nodded and pulled him into the van, the door closing and locking behind us. The back of the van had a lamp and a nice bed made of blankets and pillows. I smiled and kissed him sweetly. I could feel my stomach knotting as my nerves became shot. I pulled away and gazed deep into his eyes.
“This is kind of my first time.” I uttered shyly. I watched as Frank’s cheeks became bright red. He rubbed his arm shyly and smiled.
“This is my first time too.” He whispered softly. I smiled and felt better knowing I’m not alone. Our lips joined again passionatly. I fell back onto the pile of blankets which made up a bed. I smiled and couldn't contain my giggles as his hands pulled my jeans down. Frank's lips touched mine sweetly. I felt the sharpest pain in the world. It was like I was getting pulled apart. I winced softly to myself. This was it, my virginity is gone. It's gone to the boy I've liked more than friends since we were kids. He was my first friend, first boyfriend, first date, first kiss and now he's the first boy to get into my pants. I can see myself with him for along time.
