Nerd In Disguise

Ch. 21: Jack's feelings are out

Chapter Twenty-One

Jack's Point Of View:

I was not a big fan of bare my heart open to the one I love and care about. Clearly, I'm not an affectionate guy. I grew up feeling alone all the time, half the time I don't think I know what love is. And then everytime I look at Elaina, I knew then, she's the woman I want to settle down with.

She's the only woman I can picture myself with. Grow old, have kids together.

But she had to go and get herself tied down with someone else. Go and break my heart.

Of course I don't blame her, it's not like she knows then that I love her- even now, I don't think she understand how much I feel for her.

I watched her laugh at something Kyle said. It's three days before their wedding, and I'm seriously considering whether I should kidnap the bride and bring her away and marry her for myself.

I could hear her laugh everyday and will never get tired of her. She had those kind of laugh and smile that could literally bring a smile to my face even when I refused to.

"Still not going to do anything about the wedding?"

"What can I do Lou?" I asked sighing, "The only one who can call off this wedding is one of them. If she decided to marry him, still. Then who am I to stop her?"

"That's the thing Jack, you never try." Louisa argued as she occupied the empty chair beside mine, "How does she supposed to know your feelings are true for her to even leave her fiancé?"

I snorted, my eyes never left Elaina and Kyle. I've never seen her smile and so carefree ever since her dad died, and I'm not about to ruin that. I shake my head, "She don't need my assurance at all Lou." I answered. "Her heart already decided who it wants, and clearly I'm not the one she want."

I got up and left. I don't think I can even stay any longer. It's bad enough to actually let the fact that the woman I'm in love with is getting married in a matter of few days, it's another thing that I have to witnessed her with him. And it's another headache with the fact we're so close to the fucking goddamn deadline with this mission.

While Elaina so busy playing bride, I had to do all the work. And for the first time in my entire life ever since I got recruited, I have never hated my job more than ever.

I knew then, once this mission is up, I'm leaving. I'm leaving them once and for all and find myself. Pick myself up where she left off and be better.

•••

"You okay? You seem so out of it." Elaina asked as she walk in the office, she's glowing. I don't have to ask why, I can bet on your ass it has something to do with Kyle.

She had her hair up in a ponytail, I like it better when she wear her hair down and let it go naturally.

I sigh, "Just stress about the mission." I muttered moodily. And the fact that I'm losing you, what's new?

Elaina nodded, "Sorry I didn't help you much. Busy with wedding stuff you know?" She said shrugging and shot me sheepish smile.