Nerd In Disguise

Ch. 34: A moment with Jack at the beach

Thirty-Four

I feel like I couldn't breathe. I feel like everything is crumbling down, just as I was about to able to let everything go. I don't even know who I am anymore. I can't believe mom would be so cruel to hide this from us our whole life. Does she think we won't find out sooner or later? Does she think keeping this secret as huge as this won't affect us mentally?

"How did you get this letter?" I heard Louisa asked in shaky voice, "For how long have you know this?"

Jon sigh, "She gave it to me the other day when I dropped you a visit about the accusation." He muttered, "I didn't open it until few hours ago. Reality finally hit me that I've lost her for good this time, I needed to know what she wrote me." 

My eyes snapped to him, fuming with anger, I got up from the floor and stalk towards him. "You should have open it sooner!" I shouted, "Maybe then we could have an explanation from mom! Maybe then this could at least make any sense! I don't have to sit here with all these unanswered questions!" He flinched from my outburst, probably didn't expect me to explode. Probably did.

"I didn't know okay," He said. "If I had known then, I would have said something to you."

I don't even know what's going to happen next. Is he really my father? Does that mean I should start calling him dad? I don't fucking know. I scoffed, "Even if you know the truth that we're your daughter, I don't think you'd want us." Surprised by my sentence, he look at me quizzically. "We may shared the same blood but you will never be the father to me. You're not going to take place with someone who had love me right from the start even after discovering this ugly truth." I spat at him and without anymore hesitation, I turn around and walk out the door.

Of course I'm not in any mood for work, but right now that's all I need. Work. To get my mind off of things. I went back to college. I got to class in time, "Hey Jones!" I heard the familiar voice called. I almost forgot that the fucker Jon had enrolled me as Elliot Jones. My eyes met with the familiar golden brown eyes and I give her my best smile, since I'm not really in any mood. "Long time no see. Where have you been? Went to school for a day and you've been skipping classes. You're gonna fail if you keep that up." She whisper yelled when she realised the lecturer has entered the classroom.

I shrugged, "I was dealing with some shit." Is all I could say. I mean, I did going through something. She just don't need to know the whole details.

She nod her head but I know she's dying to know more. Everyone will be curious about someone who just started the school and then no show for next couple of weeks. "Well..." She trailed off, "I have a party this Saturday. And if you're up for it, do you want to come? I know it's not really your cup of tea. But it could be your coffee?" She joked.

I laugh, if only she knows how much I love to drink. "Um I don't know Hals, we do have an exam coming up next month..." I trailed off, "Besides, who would want me the nerd around am I right?"

"I'm looking at you, and you are not one." She snorted. I look over at her curiously, wondering what she meant. She glance at me and rolled her eyes, "Oh come on! Just because you wear glasses and braces doesn't automatically classify you as one. You sure as hell dress better than most 'hot' girls do and you don't even shy away from a conversation like most nerds I know. And trust me I know a nerd when I see one." She explained.

I raised my brows, "Oh really? Then what do I look like?"

She look over at me and do a full body check, thinking it over. "If you lose the glasses and braces, I'd say you're a badass," she commented almost proudly and face to the front again, giving the lecturer her full attention. The whole time I didn't say anything. I don't know what to say to her. I mean she's almost right. I'm not a nerd- that part is obvious. But if I don't get my act together, maybe people won't buy my 'nerd' act anymore.