Long nights and street lights

I'm in deep

"What am I supposed to do?" I was on the phone to my Auntie once again. Two calls in two weeks was a record for us.

"Well, hun, do you like the guy?" She asked plainly as if it was simple.

"I think I do..." I flopped onto my back on my bed.

"Well, go for it then!" She made it sound so easy.

"I'm not so sure."

"What are you worried about? Him breaking your heart? Darl, you'll break his before he gets the chance." She knew me too well.

"No, I don't think it's that. Possibly something that I'm not consciously aware of, but that my brain thinks is not right."

"So, do you listen to your heart or your brain is the question? Or rather which should you listen to?" How did she end up so wise? Why couldn't I get those genes?

"Both I think. I think my brain is telling me no because I'll have to commit, and I know I'm no good at that. Also, if I get in a relationship, I'll lose my partying opportunities and my reputation. God, my reputation, I don't want to let go of that even though it's kind of shit." My head was spinning and thoughts were racing.

"Aisha, chill, it's not like you're signing up to a life long commitment, right now anyway." She was right, once again. "I think you should give it a shot. If it doesn't work out, it's cool, you can go back to your parties. Anyway, it's not like you can't party when you're with him, you'll just have restrictions this time."

"I'm in too deep now anyway to say no."

"What do you mean? You've already expressed interest?"

"No, my heart has already expressed it's interest to my brain, now there's no turning back."

I sent him a text message the next morning. "Thanks for last night, I really and truly enjoyed myself."

Immediate reply. "Me too, I had so much fun. I like you lots."

"So you've told me. Hey do you wanna go to the beach tomorrow morning? Then for breakfast?"

I could nearly see the smile through his text. "Of course. See you then x."

The 'x' at the end of the message made my heart race. He really did like me.