Dear me,
Hey dude , it's you. Grayson you're in love with her. You're in love with her. Point blank period. But why of all people... her?
You met her at a party. She had a red dress on, with a black bomber jacket covering her.
She looked amazing that night. Her hair was... perfect.
I just
I don't get it.
Why did I fall in love with her?
Her and her perfect lips and beautiful eyes, not to mention the way she giggles.
She even smiles in her sleep.
Remember that time she went on the road w you and Eth? She slept on you and it felt right.
But it isn't.
No.
You can't.
Her name. I could never get tired of it. Just listening her say my name.
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This sucks.
Everything about this sucks.
She can't know. No way.
why couldn't I just have fallen in love with some girl I won't see ever again.
but no.
I fell in love with a girl who stays at my house almost every damn day.
Hanging out with Cameron and us.
Filming with us.
Laughing with us.
Sometimes even sleeping with us.
She has some of the best taste in music. We share songs all the time.
She makes me laugh.
She makes me smile.
I love every single second of it.
But I shouldn't.
I can't do this.
I can't drop this huge bomb on her.
And be like , "Hey I think I'm in love with you."
No way.
Sometimes we stay up talking about all the places we wanna go to.
I mean, we think so much alike.
She's just so... my type.
But she's not mine.
Like I'd ever be lucky enough to have a girl like that to be mine.
Please.
Maybe in another life.
But I need to get away for awhile.
I can't keep feeling like this.
Because....
She's Ethan's girl. Not mine. And it pains me to say it.
