"I'm sorry, y/n."
Those were the last words i heard from him before getting up from his bed and walking towards the door.
i went full throttle in my head, but couldn't make a sound.
I heard muffled words coming from behind me, assuming it was ethan, i kept walking down the stairs towards his front door.
As i touch the door handle, ethan's hand grabbed mine and turned me around, "What?!"
i turn to see grayson's desperate eyes as he hesitates to speak, "I'm sorry, y/n."
"Yeah, I heard you."
i snatch my hand back and he held my cheeks as he spoke softly, "i tried loving you, i did, but i can't get her out of -"
"Shut up!", i begged, pushing him off. "I don't want to hear all of that."
"You're special to me, y/n, you know that."
"I spent...", my breath hitches as i feel myself getting more and more emotional, "I spent almost a year of my life devoting myself to you... I... I did all of my firsts with you... I-"
"I know.", he said, getting ahold of my cheeks again, "I'm so sorry, i really was into you at first, but Delilah-"
"Everything you said to... to me...", i left my mouth parted as we both let our tears fall, "Everything you said... you've either once told her or tried to believe yourself, huh?"
"Not.. not all of it-"
"But a majority of it?"
He looked into my eyes and as his got even more glossy, so did mine, "Y/n, you really... i tried loving you, because that's what you deserve, a man that loves and a man that will be there for you... a man that is only fond of you, but..." i let my tears fall again, and forced my head down, "that man is not me-"
Finally i heard enough and screamed, "You said i was special! You said we had something!", my voice cracked. "What am i supposed to do with those memories now, huh?!" I push him with the last few syllables. "I devoted a year to you."
"I know, and i was with you all along-"
"Not mentally, just physically. I saw you with me. But i didn't feel you with me.", he and i both looked away from each other as we felt more tears come in. "Grayson-"
"Y/n-"
"I'm sorry, Grayson. I'm sorry I love you. I'm sorry that... that i wasn't enough-"
"You were more than enough.", he said, pulling me towards him. Allowing me to feel the warmth of him. "There's nothing you could've done different-"
"Then, why is it that Delilah ignores you for 2 years and all of a sudden as soon as she sees you happy, she texts you and you leave me like what we were meant nothing.", he fell silent and backed away. "You're throwing away what we have... like it's nothing. And you know what?", he looks down shaking his head and i finally said, "That makes me feel like nothing."
"Y/n, i know it hurts-"
"Yeah, cause she's hurt you... and isn't even sorry for it. And here we are... you hurt me, and i'm apologizing.", i said as i sat down across from him.
