Fame Or Love 🎙

"Reality"

Fame Or Love🎙

Chapter 4:

Reality

Gifted:

I opened my eyes wondering where the heck I was at.
"I could smell the scent from the hospital which only indicated, that I was in the "hospital."

The scent was making me feel "nauseous."

Ever since I lost my parents in that car accident, "I hated hospitals yet," here I was laying on this hospital bed.

I put my hands on my forehead to express my disgust. I started thinking about the dream I had which seemed more like a "premonition."

"The guy in my dream yes, I could still picture him in my mind. "His face, his body, his style, his eyes, his voice "everything." Though it was just a dream, I still remembered his name, but also, how nervous, and excited he made me feel at the exact same time.

I watched as Nakia entered the room.

As she enters the room and is about to say something but she doesn't instead, she just stares.

"Are you going to keep staring at me like I'm dying?" I asked in annoyance.

Breaking my train of thoughts, she rolled her eyes at my slick remark.

"Bish, you scared me" "I thought I was going to lose you for a minute," she told me."

Despite the excruciating pain, I was feeling I managed to chuckle at her response.

Me?? leave you here while you take all the good men?? "Hell Nah" plus I'm "Gifted," "I Gifted was born to become a star."

"Let's not also, talk about how I'm also you're a twin." You're stuck with me for life I expressed with confidence."

We both began to laugh but her laugh eventually faded to "sorrow, and regret."

"I am a strong person you know I will get through anything," I reassured Nakia. My words echoed in the air.

"Will you get through this she asked herself??"

She took a long breath "Gifted, there is something I need to tell you." she said.

I interrupted her thoughts

"Listen, I am strong there is no need to worry about me or the baby."

Nakia put her head down in disappointment she revealed the devastating news to me.

"She took another deep breath!! "Gifted, there is no baby the baby didn't make it."

Apart from me wanted to break down, and cry. I lost apart of me. That part of me that I would never get back.

"See it's one thing to hear that a woman has lost her child."

"It's one thing to hear about it, but to actually experience it is something totally different."

"Even though I was only three weeks pregnant, I had already formed a "special bond" with the baby."

"I reassured him, or her that they would be okay, and now I would have to live with the fact that, this wasn't the case"..........

My baby was no longer my baby!!! My baby was gone!

Everything happens for a reason. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. I mean I had a baby by a man, who didn't even love me "unconditionally."

I would have had to struggle to take care of my baby. Not that I would have minded, because I have pretty much been "independent, and a fighter" my whole life.

"I just wanted to have a baby with someone who actually loved me back in return." "Someone who would be "euphoric" to have a child with me."
I started thinking about the death of my parents, and now me losing my baby."

It seems like everyone who came into my life was disappearing, or only in my life "temporarily."

"I longed to have someone in my life for good."

I was glad I still had Nakia because at this point I was getting tired of everyone leaving. It's like I should just "expect the unexpected" that's how my life always turns out. "You never know what's bound to happen."

Even if I did overcome this, I knew one thing going was for sure losing my child would leave me with permanent "Scars"......

Nakia: "You're so "robust and positive."

This way I will always love you" is she said" leaning over to embrace me with a hug.

Afterward, Nakia started crying but I chose not to "cry."

"See crying wasn't going to bring my parents back."

"Crying wasn't going to bring my baby back."

"It wouldn't take away the hurt or betrayal I felt when my ex-boyfriend cheated on me, for "another woman."

"Crying wasn't going to change anything, so instead of becoming "weak" I chose to stay strong."

"Well, at least I can go back to work, and finish pursuing my career," I said trying to brighten through the moment."

Nakia stood up and looked at me with a facial expression that read "bish what???"

"Ummm no, the Doctor specifically said, you are to be on bed rest until further notice."

"You just lost your child Gifted you need time to heal, and mourn" she reminded me.

"At this point, I wanted to block everything out."

"I didn't want to focus on what was, but to instead, redirect my focus on "what is."

"The reality that I had no choice but to accept" I lost my child the reality was my child was gone." "My child wasn't coming back"

End of chapter 4