The Crimson Blade

New Deadline -Rayn-

:) Ok so I cried a little when I wrote this, it gets a little deep so get ready'-'

ps. This is officially the tenth chapter! aaaaaaaahhhhhhh!

Song is,

Disturbia

by,

Rihanna

Look it up and listen!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E1mU6h4Xdxc&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Link to the song is above!
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The Crimson Blade

Chapter X

What's wrong with me?

Why do I feel like this?

I'm going crazy now!

No more gas in the rig,
can't even get it started.

Nothing heard, nothing said,
can't even speak about it.

On my life, on my head,
Don't wanna think about it.

Feels like I'm going insane yeah!

Amber.

Brown?

Maybe hazel.

I just couldn't decide what exact color her eyes were. Those eyes were soft, caring, warm. Everything that I wasn't.

She stood, and followed Natasha out of the room. I sighed, and stretched myself on the coach. She was so beautiful, but there had to be a reason why my client wanted her dead.

Dead.

I was supposed to kill her that night, but for some reason I couldn't bring myself to do it. It terrified me, the way she made me feel things that I never felt when I killed. Well, I figured I would just bring her to the guy who wanted her dead in the first place, he can do it for all I care.

I felt pathetic, stupid.

Sighing once more, I decided that I should take a walk, look around, maybe take a nap. I strode into the kitchen, grabbed my dinner, and left after throwing a cloak over my bare back.

As soon as I was out of sight, I pulled the cloth that covered my lower face away, allowing it to hang around my neck. It was like a second skin to me, I had hidden behind it for so long. I was uncomfortable when other people looked at me. Jason I was most comfortable with, for some reason. And Lily.

My thoughts strayed to the princess. She was so beautiful, sweet, kind. She healed me when I treated her like crap. It made no sense to me. Surely there must be something that she had done to be wanted slaughtered.

I refuse to kill the innocent. I avoid it as much as I can. But sometimes I have to, it's a terrible sin to kill an innocent in my eyes. But surely that is why I deserve to die myself right?

My mind often strayed down that path. I would gaze at my blades and think,

What if I ended this?

Once, I had almost reduced myself to do it. I held my blade to my throat and was about to slide my wrist across when Lily came running into my room, screaming she had a nightmare. That's when I realized that I couldn't leave yet, She needed me. They needed me.