The Legend of Saironelloistya [COMPLETED]

Chapter 16: The Point of No Return

We arrived in the evening of the third day of our journey, back at Meneltarma. The journey had been mostly uneventful, except in a visit on the second night by Martamo. Aranellevanima woke us up from her position on the watch, and said, "There is someone here to see us." As Saironellotoron and I gathered out weapons and staffs, she said, "Leave them, they will have no effect." Trusting her, we left our weapons and followed her into a grove of trees, where we knew, as was soon confirmed, Martamo was waiting.
She turned to me and stated, "You are all making a mistake."
I rubbed my eyes, while Saironellotoron said "In what action have we made a mistake?"
She turned at him and ordered, "BE SILENT! I did not come here to bandy words with a companion, nor to waste my breath on a feeble half with such as yourself." She turned back to me, and saw my sword at her throat. She laughed, and gestured with her hand, causing my sword to fly out of my hand and become imbeded into a nearby tree. My friends drew their swords, and she looked at me as I held up a hand, stopping them in their tracks. "Saironelloistya, I suspected that you were the leader of this company of halfwits, but maybe through you, the quest can be saved."
"What mistake do you speak of?" I asked slowly and clearly, infuriated with her, but controlling it because we needed information.
"You lead this company, yet you know not the consequences of your actions. I cannot tell you, as I am bound by a Code from the Top of the Hierarchy, but instead I must warn you that a mistake will be made by you, that you will always regret. I can tell you no more than that."
"Please," I beseeched her, "you must tell us something more." I realized my pleas had fallen on not deaf ears, but lawful ones.
"I am sorry," Martamo replied empathetically, "but just as you are bound by the laws of your superiors, I am bound by the laws of mine. If I break them, it will come to no avail. I have already come as close as I can to breaking them as I am able to." I looked at her intently for the first time, and noticed how clearly her age showed. Her eyes shined iridescently, and were surrounded by laugh lines, but also greyed and bloodshot from the shedding of tears, and the gaining of years.
"You Gods are not so different than us after all?" I said with determination. "You laugh. You cry. You sing. You weep. You celebrate. You mourn. You also have free will."
"DO YOU LACK COMPREHENSION?" She shouted, catching us all of guard, and off of our feet, with the force of her shout. "I can not because the ends do not justify the means. I know everything! Did you ever stop to think that Godship could be a curse! To be omniscient, but unable to help those who you wish to, is a curse no one should have to bear, because it means that you are responsible for everything that has ever happened!" She took a deep breath, then continued in a quieter voice."I made my decision, because this is a fixed point. Whatever happens here, will mean death of the created races, but in different numbers. My decision will lead to hundreds, plausibly even thousands, of deaths, of elves, men, and ,dwarves. However, my decision is the more lenient and logical one, because otherwise many Gods, and all men, elves, dwarves, and every other thing that has ever tread upon the face of this planetary domain will perish if I choose the option that you would have me choose."
She looked resolute, but she also looked tired which as a God, I did not realise was possible. "Very well, I release you." I said, hating myself for not being intelligent enough to deduce what my mistake was going to be, and even more so because I had gotten my friends dragged into this accursed adventure.
Martamo looked at Aranellevanima curiously, and without looking back at her, Aranellevanima said almost empathetically, "You didn't make us come with you. In fact, If I remember correctly, you had no choice in the matter. And, you could not have predicted how this quest would turn out, so you are in no responsible for how the quest has gone. You have nothing to blame yourself for."
A tear ran down my face, and I wiped it away; then looked at it. "I'm sorry. " I said. "I am sorry for everything. I have made too many mistakes, to be worthy of friends such as you, or any position of leadership that you believe I have over you. I cannot ask or allow you to continue with me, as I will only make more mistakes." I turned to walk away, and Saironellotoron stopped me.
He said "You have not made only mistakes, and we have all made mistakes before. You have made many great decisions as well, which if for no other reason, is a reason for you to be our leader. Second, you are our leader, for many reasons. You often have said 'I am not worthy to be your leader,' yet this proves that you are humble, which means you are the most qualified of any of us."
Aranellevanima continued, "You are also logical, and a brilliant strategist, making you even more qualified. " She stated,
Martamo also had something to say. "In my short time with you, I have known you to be very insightful."
Aranellevanima smiled spitefully, and conjectured "You also can't really stop us from following you, especially if it is over an emotional basis."
I turned back to them, and forced a smile, then said, "I need some time to think." I noticed Martamo was gone, and said, "Get some sleep, I'll take the next watch, because I need to think anyways." The two of them agreed, and swiftly went to sleep, all of us forgetting Martamo's original purpose in appearing.