Lost

I'm Sorry

Patrick's Pov

I've never felt so betrayed and hurt before. I thought Ellen was everything, I thought that she was the one, the one special girl who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I took it really hard when Jillian cheated on me, but with Ellen, I don't think that I'll ever be able to get over this. I've locked myself in the bathroom and I've been here for hours. The trailer door is open for Ellen to get in, but just not the bathroom.

I know Ellen made a mistake, but I think that my life will be forever changed, and will never go back to the way it was before.

My vision soon becomes blurry with tears pooling down my face. I'm not able to take this anymore! My life sucks. 

Suddenly, I heard a knock on the bathroom  door. "GO AWAY ELLEN! I DON'T WANT TO TALK TO YOU! YOU BETRAYED ME!" I shout. "Patrick, it's not Ellen, it's Eric. Can I come in?" He asks me. I give in and unlock the door. He slowly walks in and sits down beside me. "It's okay, I'm here for you." He says. "Th-th thank you" I croak out continusly crying. "E-Eric, I just don't get it, I mean, am I th-that bad of a person? Because all the women that I love cheats on me. I don't think that I'll ever be able to get over this, my life is officially ruined." I say.

"Look Pat, Ellen made a mistake. Maybe after some time you can forgive her." Eric says.

"Who's side are you on? I min as well go dig myself a hole and stay there, because obviously no one cares about me." I cry.

"It's one thing that Ellen cheats on me, but she cheats on me with the guy I hate! God! I know what it's like to be cheated on. Jillian cheated on me, and now Ellen cheats on me."

"Do you want me to talk to Ellen? Maybe we can sort things out." He asks me . "Can-actually no. Just stay here with me." I cry.

Eric's Pov

It kills me to see him like this, so vulnerable and depressed. But he really needed a friend right now, and I would be in that position. I can't believe Ellen would do this to him, She was so lovely and sweet, and I'm wondering if this is her evil side. But Patrick is like a brother to me, even though he's older than me. Back in season one, Ellen was like a sister to me, but now I'm so pissed at her.

Just staring at Patrick's shaking frame, I feel guilty about this whole situation, even though I didn't do anything wrong. I wrap my arms around his muscular frame tightly and tell him that everything will be alright.

I don't believe my own words though, sure he was sad when Jillian cheated on him, but this may have broke him.

"Do you want me to go?" I ask.

"No. Stay."

"Alright, I'll stay."

I stay with Patrick for two more hours, when he's finnaly asleep, I gently untangle him from myself and quietly close the door. Hopefully Patrick will feel better soon.

I climb into my car and drive home.

The Next Day. . .

Patrick's Pov

I wake up drenched in tears realizing that I cried myself to sleep last night. I look around, feeling cold because Eric's warm body wasn't beside me anymore. 

I grab a razor from the shower wanting to get away from this world forever. The only way to do that is to cut myself.

I burst into tears and brushed them off not wanting people to see. I sit down against the wall crying really hard. I grab the razor and press it against my wrist.

1.I have dyslexia
2.Can't buy me love cast hates me.
3. My mother gets cancer.
4.Jillian and I got married.
5. We had Sullivan and Darby
6. We had Tallulah.
7. Jillian cheated on me.
8. Jillian slapped me
9. I met Ellen
10. Ellen cheats on me with the guy I hate. Chris O'Donnell.
11. My mother is at stage four, and is going to die soon.
12. I bring Ellen to Maine, but she cheats on me a month later.
13. I want to die.

Once I stop I feel lightheaded, and my vision became blurry. I felt dizzy, and black dots were dancing in my vision. I slowly fall to the ground, falling unconscious.