Lost

Save Me

Eric's Pov

They took Patrick into the ambulance with Justin, Jessica and I riding beside him in the back. The whole situation was so scary.

Jessica bursts out crying, and I look at her with sympathy. I'm so pissed at Ellen, this is all her fault. "He's going to be okay alright? Look at me. Patrick is going to be just fine." I say, still not believing my own words. She wraps her arms around me . "Do you promise?" She asks through a teary voice. "You know I can't promise that Jess, but I really hope so." I say. She nods understanding. I look at Patrick, hoping to god that the doctors in this hospital are good enough to save Patrick's life.

The rest of the ride is in silence.

"Patrick, please fight. Ellen would want you to fight, she's sorry okay? She's sorry for what she did. She told me. She's sorry and she regrets it, she regrets it so much. But I understand that you would want to hear that from her. So fight, so Ellen can tell you that she's sorry." I whisper in his ear, not even sure if he can hear me.

A tear slipped down my cheek at the thought of losing him.

Suddenly we stop and we jump out of the ambulance before they pull Patrick out.

"Folks, you're going to have to wait in the waiting room. I will give you updates on your friend as soon as I find out anything." A skinny blonde lady says. I nod and the three of us catch up with the rest of the cast.

We sit in the uncomfortable waiting room chairs, waiting to be updated, but Ellen is nowhere to be found. I felt a little bit guilty, but technically, Ellen did cheat on Patrick, but they're soul mates. I didn't see what happened, I just know what Patrick told me.

Ellen's Pov

I ran into the ladies room before anyone could find me. I felt incredibly guilty, I was an idiot. Patrick is in the hospital because of me, and that breaks my heart. I cheated on Patrick, and I feel awful about it. He's my best friend and I betrayed him, I mean, what the hell was I thinking? My cast mates who were once my friends, hate me now.

I lock myself in a stall and break down. I remember all of the good times we had together, Patrick's been my rock through the hard times and good, and I just shut the door on him. What kind of a person does that?

I cry, I cry for I don't know how long.
I need him to be okay. Patrick made my life amazing I mean, he brought me to Maine for God's sake, possibly the most beautiful state in the United States. I met his mother, she was lovely and sweet. Under the circumstances, I cheated on Patrick when he was most vulnerable and depressed. I just want to take it all back and start again, but obviously you can't do that because you can't go back in time.

Suddenly, I heard the bathroom door open, and a woman I knew all too well walks in. Jessica Capshaw.

A knot builds up in my throat and I try to stay dead quiet, I don't want her to know that I'm here. But of course I fail miserably and burst into tears.

"Ellen, can I please come in?"  Jessica asks.

"Why do you want to? You hate me like the rest of the cast does." I cry.

"Please Ellen, I just want to talk to you."

"Fine." I say and unlock the stall door.

She looks at me and gasps. "Oh El-"

Patrick's going to hate me! He's never going to forgive me, and if he dies, I'll never get the chance to say that I'm sorry!" I cry.

"El, I'm pissed at you for what you did, but I can't bear to see you cry. Patrick's in love with you, he'll do anything for you, just give him time, and maybe he'll forgive you. But I'm your friend, and even though I'm pissed as hell at you, I will never leave your side because that's what a true friend does." She says and wraps her arms around my shaking frame.

"Come on, let's get out of here."

"But-"

"Ellen, if you tell everyone the truth, they'll forgive you, but it's going to take time."

We walk out of the bathroom, with my hands in my tear stained face, not wanting to look at anyone and see their pity glances.

Five Hours later. . .

A doctor comes towards us. "Hey, Patrick is out of surgery, but there were completions. But you are alowed to see him now.He's not awake awake though." She says.

I stand up and run to Patrick's room.

Just looking at him, I realize how much I love him. There's so many machines hooked up to him, he can't even breathe by himself.

I grab his hand and rub his hair.

"Patrick, I'm so sorry. You're my best friend, and I feel awful about cheating on you. I want us to grow old together. Please be okay, it's my fault that you're in the hospital. I understand if you hate me, because I've done something terrible. I love you so much Paddy! We're supposed to end up together, Dempeo is supposed to be real! You're not the only one here for hates me, Eric does too."  By the end of my little speech, I'm balling my eyes out, this is all my fault.

I pull up a chair next to his hospital bed and hold his hand. I'm never planning to leave his side.

A couple of other people come for a few minutes and then leave, but I stay put and don't move a muscle.

Three hours go by and I can't take it anymore! My head collapses, and I cry onto his chest. Other than my crying, the only sound I hear is his heart monitor.

"Please forgive me Paddy."