Lost

Almost There

Patrick's Pov

Ellen and I are almost back to the way we were before. Our relationship is almost the same way it was before any of this shit happened. I am giving her another chance, and it's going well. It's going to take time, but we're going to be fine. But without Ellen, I don't know where I'd be. It's nice to know that we are mending, our friendship is restarting, and it is almost fixed.

After that dinner that we had yesterday night, I told Ellen that I forgive her. It's the past, and it doesn't matter anymore. But I do know that she feels really guilty.

I leave the kids with Jillian and drive myself to work. Once I was at Prospect Studios, I looked around, but there wasn't anyone here yet. Maybe I was early. I walk into Ellen and I's trailer and I decided that I would practice my lines. I practiced yesterday night after Ellen left, but I guess it's good to get more practice in. Time to turn into Derek Shepherd.

But then I remembered that in this season, Meredith has to choose between Derek and Finn. I didn't like what Shonda has in store for this season so far, but I guess I have to deal with it. I guess she just did that to add some drama to the show, as it makes the fans to stay tuned to the show. But that means that Ellen and I won't do as much scenes together, and she'll be doing more scenes with Chris O'Donnell, and I didn't like that. At all.

I rolled up my sleeves and look at my cuts on each of my forearms. Some of them run from the start of my wrist to my elbow. They will always be there for a reminder of what Ellen did, but I have been slowly getting over it, Ellen deserves a second chance to make things right with me, and it is working. For me, and I'm sure for most people if not all, it is more important to focus on the good things that happen in life than the bad things that have happened in the past. It's more healthy to live by that.

Things have been shaping up better and I'm starting to believe that all the shit in my life is going down the drain. I took a look out of the window, but when I do, I saw Chris O'Donnell getting out of his car. I felt the rage flowing through my veins, but it was hard enough to ignore it. But for Ellen's sake I do, but I think Chris already knows that I hate him, so I wouldn't have to prove that to him.

I sighed in fustration. Why did Shonda have to invite Chris anyway? I think that everyone has been just as pissed off at him as I was at Ellen. The whole situation would have never happened if he wasn't here. I put my lines down on the coffee table, and got changed into my dark blue scrubs since my scene was first, but I wasn't the least bit nervous.

After fifteen minutes, more and more people from the cast poured into the studio. Finally I saw my partner in crime, Ellen. She walks into our trailer, her honey blonde hair bouncing in the wind.

"Hey El, how did you like dinner last night?" I ask smiling genuinely.

She smiles warmly at me, "it was great Patrick, you're a great cook. It made my girls really happy, and I'm assuming that your kids were too." She responds.

"That's good, I wanted to make it special for my partner in crime. We should do it more." I say.

"Yeah, we really should. Mabye I should cook for you sometime. You can bring your kids." She says.

"Sorry to ask this, but are we okay now?" Ellen asks, hope in her emerald eyes.

"Almost. We're almost okay."