Lost

Please Forgive Me

A few days later

Eric's  Pov

Patrick got admitted to the hospital Monday, it's Thursday now and he hasn't woken up yet.

Ellen hasn't moved a muscle either. She continues to cry on Patrick's chest and never let go of Patrick's hand. Although, I'm super pissed at her, I'm also kind of worried about her. To say that she hasn't slept would be an understatement, I know that she hasn't got a minute of sleep in the past few days.

As for me, I don't look that hot either. But I look better than Ellen.

I walk into the room and put a hand on her shoulder.

"Ellen, mabye you should go. Rent a hotel for the night or something." I offer.

"Eric, I can't. I have to stay here for him. I did this. I did this to him, he's in the hospital because of me! I'm an idiot!" She cries through a teary voice.

"Ellen, you aren't an idiot, you made a mistake, mistakes happen, it's not the end of the world, and yeah I'm super pissed at you for it, but he doesn't need you right now. He'll need you later, when he's concious." I say.

She falls into my arms and I wrap my large arms around her tiny body.

"What if he wakes up and he hates me? What if our friendship dissolves, and he hates me forever?" She asks.

"That won't happen. Patrick loves you El, he'll do anything for you." I say.

"Alright, I'll rent a hotel for the night, but promise me that you'll call me if anything happens." She says.

"I promise."

"Okay, goodnight then" She says and walks away.

I turn back to Patrick, and sit down where Ellen was previously sitting. He looked so pale.

"Patrick, if you can hear me, you need to do one thing for me. You need to fight, Ellen's been by your side the entire time. She loves you Patrick, and I can tell that she's sorry. She needs you, we all need you. You're the glue that keeps us together, without you we'd all fall apart. You need to wake up."

A doctor comes in and checks his vitals.

"Hey, how is he?" I ask.

"He's still unconscious."

"I can see that, how is he otherwise?" I ask reading her tag that says Dr. O'Leary.

"His heart is strong, he lost a lot of blood, about 70%. We took him for some tests and we found found a lot of cuts on his wrists, and they were really deep. But the good thing is that he should be able to breathe on his own in a day or two."

"When's he going to wake up?" I ask.

"Hopefully in a day or two. If not, then we will have to open him back up. If that doesn't work, we'll have to call it. I'm sorry about your friend, I know that means nothing to you, but I just wanted to say that I'm sorry." Dr. O'Leary says.

"No No, you're doing everything in your power to save him, so thank you."

Half an hour later, my eyelids start to feel really heavy, and I try to find comfort in this uncomfortable chair. I finnaly find comfort and sleep it off for the night.

The Next Day. . .

"Er-Er-Eric?"

I wake up to a voice that I didn't think that I would ever hear again.

"Patrick. Long time no see." I say smiling ear to ear, feeling so relived that he's okay.

"What happened?" He asks me.

"Long story short,  but I'll tell you anyway. Patrick, you're probably going to hate Ellen after I tell you what happened. I have to call Ellen first."

I walk into the hallway and take out my phone, not sure how this was going to go. I take a deep breath and call her.

Ellen: Hello?

Eric : Hey Ellen, it's Eric. Patrick's awake. He seems okay at the moment

Ellen : Does he remember what happened?

Eric : No, but I told him that I would tell him. He deserves to know Ellen.

Ellen: I know that, but what if he hates me forever because of this?

Eric : He won't hate you, he loves you. You may not believe it now, but know he will.

Ellen : Alright, alright I'm coming. I'll do whatever it takes for him to forgive me. I'll be there in five.

Ellen : See you in five minutes. Wait, don't tell him what happened. He needs to hear it from me.

Eric : Alright, see you in five.

I end the call with Ellen and walk back into Patrick's room. Other than huge bandages on his wrists, he looked fine, which was surprising since just a few days ago, he almost died.

I snap out of my thoughts when I heard a door open. Ellen comes running in to his room. "Patrick, you're okay." She says. "Hi Ellen, what happened to me? Why am I in the hospital?" He asks.

"Patrick, it's a long story. But I was hanging out with Chris O'Donnell, and we were practicing our lines, and just as you opened Chris's trailer door, looking for me, Chris and I's lips crashed together. Then you screamed at me and cut yourself very deeply. After that, Eric told everyone that I cheated on you. He got Justin, Jessica, and Justin and you were almost dead. You almost died. And yeah, I feel so guilty, and I know that if you hate me, I understand." Ellen says, and starts to cry.

"El, why would you do that to me?! I don't hate you, I just don't understand why you would want to that to me?! Do you even understand what it feels like to be cheated on? Having a mother with cancer? It feels downright horrible!" He cries.

Ellen's Pov

"I'm so sorry, I love you Patrick! Please forgive me!" I say.

A tear slips down his beautiful face and I can't stand it anymore. I did this to him, he's in the hospital because of me. I hurt him when he was most vulnerable and depressed. All I can say to him now is I'm sorry. But sorry doesn't cut it. I made a giant, disgusting mistake, and I can't take it back.

I hate seeing him cry, it's like the most thing I hate in the whole world. He's pissed with me and I know it, and there's nothing I can do about it.

"It was a whole misunderstanding Patrick, I wanted to explain, but you had already ran out, and from there, I don't know where you went. But after twenty minutes, Eric found you lying in a puddle of blood, and you almost died, it was the most scariest thing I've seen in the whole world. I know that you're probably pissed at me and you have every right to be. I just hope that you'll be able to forgive me some day." I say.

We're both crying by now, he looks pissed but he tried not to show it. "You're going to have to give me time Ellen." He says. "That's fine with me.

"Are we broken up?" He asks.

"No, we're on a break. But don't forget that I  will always love you." I say.

He smiles at me and gives me a gentle hug.

"I'll always love you too El."