It all happened so suddenly.
'Dan?'
'What's up?'
And that was it. Kyle kissed me. Kyle kissed me. He has a fucking girlfriend...
I was in the dressing room before our show, leaning up against the wall. Kyle walked in, he looked slightly awkward. Before I could ask him what was up, he kissed me. I was so shocked but I didn't pull away. Why didn't I pull away?! He grabbed onto my waist and pushed me further up against the wall. I kissed him back so hungrily...
He unbuckled my belt and...I don't want to go into to much detail but lets just say, I received the best head ever...I can't believe I'm even saying this.
I'm almost angry. He hasn't told me why any of that has happened, It's like he's pretending it never happened. Like he doesn't remember. What would Janna think...? This will follow me every day. I just don't understand.
'Kyle...Why? What is going-'
'Shhh...' He kissed me again, my back up against the wall.
I'm angry at what he's done to me. I enjoyed every second of what happened but it was all so wrong. I have a feeling he's turned things round. I have a feeling I'm gay. But not just for anyone. For him.
'Are you not going to tell me what's going on? At least let me return something...'
'No. I want nothing in return. Come on, we have to be on stage in 5.'
And that was it. I felt guilty.
'Kyle.' I knocked on the door to his hotel room. He opened it with a shy expression plastered on his face. He let me in and closed the door.
'Oh...Hey Dan...'
'Kyle. Tell me what's going on. You've barely spoke to me since...since...You know. What even was that? I just want to know why-'
'Dan. Please.'
'Please what Kyle? You can't just make-out with someone and then pretend like it never happened! That someone being one of your bestfriends as well! You have a girlfriend for fuck's sake!' I started getting angry.
'Dan...' He looked down to the floor. I decided I didn't really want to talk about it anymore. I opened the door and went to walk away. 'Wait Dan, I-'
'What?'
'It was...It was an act of kindness.'
'No. No it wasn't. I admit, it was great in the moment but look what you've done! Look how you've made me feel! I'm sick of your shit Kyle.'
And then he kissed me again. I wanted to pull away and tell him kissing me isn't going to fix shit. But I couldn't. He was like a drug. He drew me in. And long story short, we ended up sleeping together...
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Woahhh, Yeah sorry for that guys...I just had this idea and you know, why not.
It's pretty shitty but oh well. Happy Valentines ;)
