Ghost ˚ C. Xavier [4]

Chapter One

A/N: Unless you've read story IV in "Imprisoned" you're not going to understand Jean's memory... THIS STORY IS DOING ALL THE THROWBACKS!

Moments after Beth's death, Jean's P.O.V

"Jean.... I'm so-orry for not telling you. Honey, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry...." Beth's voice echoed through my head, making me look away from the sand covered floor. "I'm sorry I gave you away... I'm sorry I left you all alone. But, I love you... And I'm-...."

I watched the scene unfold and felt my heart stop beating momentarily out of shock. Beth had been talking to me with her mind as she was slowly losing the battle against death and had told me who she really was. I turned my head to look at Charles, my real father, and saw his tear filled eyes staring right back at me. "She was my mother..." I said quietly, a tear slipping down my cheek. I looked back down at Scott holding her in his arms, her eyes now closed. "I always knew... I just-...I didn't think it possible..."

I thought back to my earliest memory, the one that made me feel an emotional bond to her. The one that kept me up in the middle of the night with confusion. I closed my eyes to stop the tears, but they just kept falling. My mother...

"It's going to be okay..." The woman above me whispered with a raspy voice, tears streaming down her face. "I know people that will take good care of you... The Greys are nice people." I tightened my hold on her finger as she continued to speak. I liked hearing her voice. It made me feel happy and safe. It gave me a sense of warmth. "And when I'm ready...I'll find you. Me and your father. We'll find you and we'll all be together as a family." She kissed my head softly as I closed my eyes, my hold on her finger loosening. "But until then, I have to give you up, my little girl. Jean."

I continued to sob at the memory, falling to my knees as pain filled my chest once more. "I forgive you..." I whispered. "Mom, I forgive you." I choked out.

"'till death do we part..." The voice of The Professor, my father, said quietly.

"D-did you know?" I asked, picking my head up slowly.

He looked at me with his own tear filled eyes. He stayed silent as he looked into his lap.

I began to feel anger. I had been close with him for the time I've been his student. I clenched my teeth and felt more hot tears leave my eyes. "Did. You. Know?!" I hissed, almost being drowned out by Scott's screams and cries.

"Towards the end...Yes." The Professor said sadly.

I shook my head, another wave of sobs hitting me. My crying mixed with Scott's and I felt hopeless.

But, mother, I forgive you...