Ghost ˚ C. Xavier [4]

Chapter Seven

A/N: I am SOOOOO sorry for not updating in like forever! I have been so busy with my sister's baby shower planning and the Riley video... I've had terrible writers block... I am honestly terribly sorry! Here is a James for an apology present

"What the fuck do you mean? You had to leave?! You had to lie to us all? Beth, I-... Why didn't you come back sooner?" Charles shouted after about an hour of silence. We were in our shared bedroom in the mansion, my tired body laying on the bed, tears falling from my eyes. "You could have...." He said in a softer tone, pausing with a look of regret on his face from yelling. "...come home."

"I'm home no-"

"You could have stayed!" Charles interrupted, his eyes becoming glossy with tears. "You could have saved everyone months of mourning! You could have saved Scott from shutting everyone out...." He sighed, running a hand down his face.

I frowned, my body aching to just get up and hold onto the man in front of me as if my life depended on it. I swallowed the lump that formed in my throat, blinking back more tears. "What do you want me to say, Charles?" I whispered, though I knew he had heard me. "That I'm sorry for doing what I thought was best for you? For everyone?" An ugly silence fell over us like a blanket, my heart beating loud in my ears. "It pained me to fall asleep in a cold, empty bed.... knowing that I could be here with you and our daughter... with Scott." I breathed out, my eyes closing. "I didn't want anybody to get hurt."

I heard the motor in Charles's wheelchair grow closer, the sound of the wheels on wood stopping by my side. I opened my eyes, meeting the blue ones of my husband. The man I loved with all my heart. The one who that same heart broke for every night. "Why didn't you stay...?" He choked out, his hand grabbing mine.

"Whatever... brought me back... protected me from death...." I paused, running my thumb over his wrist. "It was too strong. I woke up in a trashed room, Charles. I-I haven't been able to control whatever it is inside of me." I cried. "I killed a man, Charles. I killed him in cold blood and I couldn't stop it!"

A hand fell onto my cheek, wiping away my tears. "Beth... Love, I..." He closed his mouth, a groan barely passing his lips. "I could have helped you control it-"

"No!" I yelled, shooting up to my feet, finding myself across the room from him now. "It can't be controlled, Charles." I sobbed. "It can't... I've tried... God, I've tried... it's too powerful."

"Beth-" His voice faded out as an all too familiar ringing sounded. Something snapped inside of me...

I shook my head rapidly, my hand flying to my ears. "No, no, not now... please not now." I screamed, sinking to my knees while the light above us shattered in an explosion of sparks. I felt him trying to pry into my head and my eyes flew open. "Don't!" I barked, my hand raising as my powers shot him towards the wall. More tears fell from my eyes as I squeezed them shut. "Please just kill me..." I cried, my head burning. "Just kill me, please!" I said louder. With that, everything stopped, and my world went black.

A/N: Ummmmm why does every chapter get worse...