All About The Girl || rsl & r5

14

Madison's POV

The urge to stay in bed all day and hug a pillow to my chest as I cried was strong, but I fought it and reluctantly climbed out of bed. I managed to get a glimpse of my reflection in the mirror before I exited my room. My hair was a mess, there were bags under my eyes, and the tracks of my tears from last night were prominent. I ran a brush through my hair to try and tame the mess atop my bed before opening my door, the hinges creaking.

The first thing I noticed was the silence. If a penny were to drop, you'd be able to hear it. Panic coursing through my veins, I hurried towards Ross' room, my face dropping instantly as I examined the room. His bed was neatly made as if no one slept in in.

"Ross!" I called, backing away. No response.

Usually the kitchen was a mess, Ross trying to make breakfast for the two of us, but it was clean. Almost spotless. I spotted a piece of paper stuck to the fridge, and grabbed it; my heart dropping when I saw it was from my mom. Your father and I are checking into a hotel for the remainder of our trip. We didn't want to burden you and Ross. Besides, your father loves room service. We'll talk to you later today. Love you.

 

I was a terrible daughter for not even noticing that they were gone. I was so focused on Ross that they didn't even cross my mind. But he hadn't come home last night, which I think gave me the right. He could be anywhere right now, and I couldn't stop thinking of the worse case scenarios. Was he okay? Alone? Alive? I knew thinking this way was going to drive me crazy, but I couldn't help it. He was the most important person in my life and I don't know what I'd do if something happened to him.

He had run out of here so fast after our kiss, but it had left an impression with me. I could still feel his lips against my own, soft and warm. They weren't what I'd expected, though I truly didn't know what to expect. The kiss was the most unexpected thing, but the best at the same time. I craved more.

"You're such an idiot." I berated myself, sinking down onto the couch. I buried my hands in my hair, pulling at the strands as I let out a frustrated groan. Why did I pull away from the kiss? That was the last thing I wanted. All I wanted to do was run my fingers through his hair, feel his body pressed up against mine. But because I was so shocked at what had happened, I pulled away and ruined the best moment of my life.

Now, he was avoiding me. He didn't come home, didn't text or call, and I was terrified of what would happen next. Would he move out to avoid my presence? That thought alone had tears accumulating in my eyes.

This was my fault, and there was nothing I could do to fix it.

~*~

I thought maybe his siblings would know where he was, but when they came up empty, my hope was dwindling and my worry was increasing. Where the hell are you, Ross? I was currently at Rydel's house, sitting on her couch as she made us some tea. I weakly smiled in thanks as she lowered the mug into my hand. I blew on the steaming liquid before taking a sip, letting it calm me down and push aside my worries for the moment.

"What exactly happened last night?" Rydel asked after taking a sip from her own drink. "Why did he storm out? Did you two get in a fight?"

I shook my head, pushing a piece of hair behind my ear. "He, uh, kissed me."

Her eyebrows shot up in surprise. It was obvious she wasn't expecting that answer. "Come again?"

"He kissed me." I repeated, letting out a sigh. "I was so shocked that I pulled away, but I didn't want to. He looked so hurt, Rydel. I tried to talk to him, but he stormed out and I haven't seen him since. I'm really worried about him."