All About The Girl || rsl & r5

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Madison's POV

I shifted uncomfortably on the bed, attempting to cuddle up to Ross's chest. But when I opened one eye sleepily, he wasn't there. I sat up, immediately feeling my stomach wanting to be emptied even though I hadn't eaten anything since yesterday. I hated this.

Once I had finished my morning routine of throwing up, I washed my mouth and made my way out, to see Ross speaking through the phone whilst staring out of the window. He hung up a few minutes later when he glanced back and noticed me. "I've got to go. Bye."

I was sat on the couch, flicking through the channels when I felt the couch dip and Ross plopped down next to me, his arm instantly finding its way around my shoulder. "Morning, baby."

"Hey." I distantly responded as I came across a channel that was showing a show about young mothers.

"How did you sleep, love?" He trailed his fingers through my hair and down to my cheek.

"Could've been better." I heaved a frustrated sigh. My hormones were kicking in and I knew that I would snap at someone very soon.

"Are you mad at me?" He grabbed my hands in his.

"Is there a reason for me to be mad at you?" I turned to him, raising an eyebrow and pursing my lips.

"No, not really." He bit his lip.

"Not really? Ross, you know I never ask you about your calls, but who was it that called you this early in the morning? It's not even 9am yet and as far as I know, the label opens at 10."

"I know, but they needed to tell me something." Ross turned his attention to the floor, kicking his own feet and fumbling with his thumbs when he let go of my hands. He inhaled a deep breath. "I'm leaving for tour soon."

"What?" I knew what would come after this, he wouldn't have time because of interviews, the tour, rehearsals, the fans.

"I'm leaving for tour next month."

"Ross-"

"This is my first solo tour...to kick off my career."

"You already have a career! Why do you want to start again? You've had everything all ready. Does that mean that soon you'll want to start all over again with another girl, too?"

"Never doubt that I'll always be there for you. We can FaceTime every day, even a few times a day."

"You won't be! You're going on tour for god knows how long, and you're telling me you'll be there for me? Bullshit!" I hadn't realized that I was now shouting.

He stared at me for a moment, his jaw dropped and his eyes widened, obviously taken aback by my outburst, "M-Madison, you were the one who supported me with this. We're best friends."

"I wasn't pregnant. Now I am and it's very different. We're a lot more than best friends - we're gonna be parents."

"Listen, I tried reasoning with Andrew-"

"I don't care. I just wish you understood that I need you here with me, not through FaceTime on the other side of the world."

"I do understand. I really do babe, but there's nothing I can do. I tried to reason with him and wait until next year, but he said that I need to go now. The tickets are already out and-"

"Don't go, Ross." I felt tears brimming my eyes as my voice cracked. "I need you here, with me. O-Our child needs you." I stared at him, feeling my bottom lip tremble. I buried my face in his chest, letting my tears stream down my face as my hands gripped at the hem of his shirt. The thought of him being away for so long overwhelmed and terrified me. I knew that someday he would be going on tour because he was a successful musician and he would be as a solo artist, but I couldn't bottle up my emotions anymore.

He began rocking me in his arms, his hands rubbing my back and stroking my hair soothingly. "Ross I-I'm scared. I-I don't want you to leave."

"Come with me then." He whispered in my ear, continuing his attempts to calm me down, but unlike other times when I was like this, it wasn't working. "Please join me on tour, baby girl."

That made me meet his eyes for the first time since this conversation even started. I wanted to kiss him and cuddle him if only it meant that he wouldn't leave me. "What do you say?" Ross rubbed my arms as he bit his lip, his eyes never leaving mine.

"I-I can't. I have a job here and I can't be away from home. I can't be around screaming fans and crowds who push and shove to be the closest to you."

"I'll make sure you're safe, Maddie. You know I will."

"Ross, you'll be busy all day every day. I'll hardly see you. When you go on tour alone, b-by the time it's over, I'll probably be so advanced in my pregnancy. What if you're in the middle of a concert when I go into labor and give birth? What if you miss the birth of your child?"

I could see the frustration burning in his eyes. "I don't know. But we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. If I had to, I would cut a concert short or even cancel it all together. I swear to God, I will not miss the birth of our baby. I will be by your side the entire time." He grabbed my hands, holding it close to his chest. "You're not going to be alone, Maddie. I promise."

This is quite a short chapter but I'm sad to say that it's the last one. The epilogue will be up soon