Profit

Chapter 4

Bambi POV

I slowly walked over to him and sat next to him on the bed tucking my lips into my mouth. I felt his hand lightly rub against my thigh. I cleared my throat in unknowing silence. He leaned over and kissed my neck. I shook a little bit and tried to move my head but unfortunately he just turned my body to face his. He looked into my eyes and leaned in while grabbing hold of the back of my neck pulling me in closer to him.

His lips touching mine, putting me in eternal bliss. He layed me back while continuing to rub and touch with anticipation. I don't know what I'm doing but he's just going with it, maybe I should just do the same. He slowly started to undress himself of his clothing down to his briefs. He soon got me out of my clothing and had the covers raised up to the brim of his neck.

"Are you a virgin?" He questioned staring at me with his eyebrows raised. I nodded slowly and looked away sheepishly. He put his fingers under my chin and lifted my head slowly. My eyes slowly meeting his and he gave me a reassuring smile.

"It's okay I'll be gentle with you I promise," He said kissing my lips softly. I nodded as he kissed me again. He looked at me and breathed out slowly.

"Take a deep breath okay, it'll help but it'll still hurt a little bit," He warned me caressing my back. I nodded and took a deep breath before I felt him pushing into me. The pain being so unbearable I attempted to let out an ear piercing scream but was silenced by him placing his lips on mine to terminate the nerve wrecking sound.

The pain slowly fading with every thrust. I shrieked a little bit and he started to breathe harder and harder. The sound of Marcus Cooper's Feel the Rush, filling the room as well as his grunts and a couple of my shrieks. This wasn't at all what I thought it would be. I imagined that my man would make this experience one to remember, not one to regret. Darrian's body twitched and he growled lowly and slumped over on top of me.

I layed there and thought, and thought, and thought some more. When I finally got tired of thinking, I got up and slipped my clothes back on. I got up and walked out of the room with him right on my trail. I got into the car and sat back waiting to pull up to my small broken down house. Or at least what I use to call home, I guess. When we pulled up to my house I got out and walked up to my door. I went straight to my room without seeing my mom.

I shredded every piece of clothing off of my body and got into the shower. The cold water drenching the built up sweat that had gathered onto me. I took slow deep breaths and massaged my neck as the water beat down onto my head. I turned off the water and got out putting on some old sweats and a big shirt. I fell out onto my bed and tossed around until I finally drifted to sleep.

I woke up in the afternoon, my legs sore, which made me regret my decision even more. I silently got up and walked downstairs seeing my mother on the couch sleeping. I went into the kitchen and made a bowl of golden grahams with two ice cubes. I ate in my room and put the bowl on my night stand. I felt drowsy and tired and with that I was going to sleep until I had to go to school tomorrow. But for some reason, that I couldn't even explain, I felt like my life was about to change drastically.

On Monday morning I wasn't feeling good at all so I decided not to go and wait it out instead. Waiting it out ended up turning into a two weeks vacation. When I felt the least bit up to it I got up and put on some black dress pants a white fitted shirt with black sleeves and my black converses. I threw my hair up into a ponytail, brushed my teeth, and put on passion fruit deodorant. I grabbed my bag and my key with my bowl from yesterday and walked downstairs. I set my bowl into the sink and walked out of the house. I took the short way to school, just wanting to hurt up and sit down. I walked to my first hour class and sat down. I rested my head on my propped arm as I stared out of the window at the sky and the tree's in the secluded area.

Ms.Cox, who came in the class earlier than expected, got her computer up and running ready for roll to be taken. The class filled up slowly and everyone was just sluggishly going through the motions. I watched the outdoors and as the clouds shifted more the drowsier I became. I've never felt so defeated in my life. I continued to look outside until the brims of my eyes were wet. I wiped the tears and tilted my head more to take in the full view of outside. I heard someone calling my name which bursted my thought process, again.

"Bambi Jacobs," She called out.

I stared at her as a wave of irritation slowly coursing through me. I squinted and tilted my head as she continued to call my name. Me refusing to say anything back to her once again. Her eyes widened in shock and looked around the room seeing Darrian and everyone else turned my way. I put my head back down and looked back out of the window. I heard some gasp in shock. No one had ever known me to disrespect or blatantly disregard her or anyone else for that matter. Just then, I tuned back into the class.

"That's it. If you want to be disrespectful you can leave my classroom," Ms.Cox called sounding inferior, thinking I would back down. I tilted my head and leaned forward to where my head leaned over the desk and put my hand on my bag. She furrowed her eyebrows as everyone else watched anxious to see what would happen next. I scowled at her and snatched my bag walking to the door. Everyone's eyes were wide and filled with entertainment.

"If you walk out of this classroom don't come back for the rest of the day," She said trying to 'scare' me into staying here. I sighed and smacked my hand against my thigh. I opened the door and walked out hearing words everywhere but was to carefree and tired to pay attention.

"Oops," I said before slamming the door closed behind me. I walked down the hallway and felt dizzy. I went outside and walked in the direction of my destination.

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