What Went Wrong?

Chapter 23

It felt like hours later, but at last, I opened my eyes. I noticed I was invisible again but I felt something I haven't felt for a hundred or more years... regret.

I didn't quite like what I saw, I was hoping for better. I saw a terrified, shocked Papyrus holding the human... my human, Frisk. Frisk had knives lined up their body. Their bodies blood soaked the snow and the color crimson stained Papyrus's white bones. I seemed that Frisk protected Papyrus. Shit!

He was visibility shaking and whispering to Frisk, "H-human... H-hu-human? Are y-you okay... Human?" Frisk's only response was heavy breathing.

Then Frisk's determined soul then appeared in front of them and from there it seemed everything happened in slow-motion. Papyrus seemed to stop everything as we both watched their soul shatter. I screamed out, "No!" then everything went dark.

I felt like how I did when I was buried in that garden, isolated, crazy, and scared. I though I was going to be alone in the grave for the rest of eternity but then two buttons appeared not to far from me... CONTINUE and RESET. I stared at the two buttons, why in the world would I be in the save menu, after death nobody is supposed to be here. I was confused... what is this? What's going on here?

Oddly, in this save menu it was as if I had never died. I was in my own body, not a floating ghost. Although since I wasn't supposed to be here I was glitched out with white fuzzy static like things surrounding my body and face. I could feel everything my soul, my skin, my feelings. A tear rolled down my cheek.

I took a breath in and started to take a step towards the buttons to investigate. Until someone behind me cleared their throat. I was close to yelping, but I couldn't help but jump at the sudden noise. I turn to see Frisk, they were digging their heel into the ground but instead of looking down the stared me directly into my eyes, I felt super uncomfortable and yet even more guilty. Why did my emotions have to come back! They seemed surprised to see my actual body for the first time, what did they expect, some emo kid wear black?! I am almost certain that they wanted to kill me right now! I couldn't look them back in the eyes.

After a long time of silence Frisk finally sighed and said out loud, "Why? Why were you trying to kill Papyrus? He was nothing but kind and gentle. I know he was fighting me but he just needs reassurance. If I hadn't jumped in front of the bullet hell of knives he would be dead..."

I felt even more of this... Regret. I looked away in shame. I never intended to hurt him I just protected Frisk. I... I... I protected the people I, uh, cared about. No I don't care about Frisk! Do I? I couldn't control myself... I'm really off my rocker aren't I? I laughed at that thought, then I laughed more and more until I couldn't stop, but it wasn't funny. Glitchy tears strolled down my face as I died laughing. I felt so alone. All the emotions I couldn't feel in the grave, came pounding back on my soul. I knew I was only here because they were still, determined! I wasn't wanted! No one ever wanted me! Why do I have to still be here, why can't I just rest in peace like every other dead soul?!

Then something happened. I definitely wasn't expecting. Frisk was hugging me. I immediately stopped crying and froze in place. I haven't felt this since before I poisoned myself... ashamed and loved. Toriel, Asgore, Asriel, and I used to all be a family, we could have lived together forever. But I screwed everything up... I hate myself. Then I cried again into Frisks shoulder, I hate crying in front of people it shows my weak side. They patted my back and I started ranting about how terrified I was, and how I thought I was going back to the grave, or how I could feel emotions for the first time in forever! I was sure not to tell them about my past though. They sympathetically nodded while listening. Why did they even care anymore?!

~a short time later~

I finally stopped crying and Frisk stood up and held out their hand. I took it and slightly smiled at them. Then I told them their long awaited apology "Frisk, I... I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you. When you were low on HP I got scared and I let my power show. I had bo idea how strong I really was. My mind and body wouldn't cooperate! I'm sorry... I couldn't control myself. I tried to stop but I gave up trying. I'm a coward" I looked them in the eyes and saw in their expression that they knew I didn't mean to. Though I saw a small bit of wariness and sympathy, they still had no idea why I was so sad, or how I died, or how I fell in the first place; which I felt they didn't need to know, they didn't need to worry about me. Then I rubbed my eyes and said, "Okay! Let's do this again."

Frisk walked over and hit the CONTINUE button. In an instant I felt like I was being teared apart limb by limb and all the blackness around changed to white and slowly my vision came back. We were in Snowdin right outside the shop and the inn. My fuzzy glitches around me were now gone and I was back to being my normal translucent ghost-like self.

"Chara? Chara? Are you still there?" Frisk was asking me. I make myself a visible silhouette and flew around them once. They put a thumbs and I waved and vanished once again.

They turned happily and skipped across the town until they reached Papyrus. Papyrus didn't seem to remember anything and just went on with his normal speech and used his blue attacks. Frisk was better at dodging his attacks this time. After a bit, Frisk befriended Papyrus and he was so excited and happy to have been befriended. I smiled and wished I could feel anything else but hatred towards everyone.

He finally after all these year had someone to call a friend, a best friend. I remember when Asriel and I were his only friends, I mean besides Undyne but she's had responsibilities, she probably doesn't have the time to hang out... wait... UNDYNE! How has she been all these years! I hope she's still the bright and happy fish she always was! Then Frisk dragged me out of my thoughts when I heard the distant sound of flowing water, and I realized we have entered Waterfall.