What Went Wrong?

Chapter 13

I watched his face in delight. He was shocked for sure because I was sure he knew I'd be using my own soul to free them all. I smiled almost wickedly. I can't believe he actually agreed! Does he know what he's getting himself into?! I thought. I started to feel a tad bit bad for getting Asriel involved but I shook it off, I knew I had to do this.

Then I said, "Now, so you don't get hurt I will need you to perform this quickly and do not hesitate. If you hesitant at all, even for a second, they will take action and kill you first. They are a lot more evil than you think."

He nodded. I saw the fear in his eyes, I desired to feed off that and keep my determination going. My heart hammered on my chest I chuckled almost evilly and then recited my plan out loud and gave him my note pad so too. I announced, "Okay! So step one, stuff my face full of Buttercups. Step two, die." Asriel flinched at that when I said it aloud. I ignored him and continued, "Step three, you absorb my soul and become a greater monster being. You will become a god!" I made a spectacular gesture in the air, it seemed to lessen the tension a bit. "Step four, you take my soul to cross the barrier and then set my body down... if you can, may that be the bed of golden flowers in my village? You don't need to answer just do it, but only if you know you can." I saw out of the corner of my eyes, he nodded, I sighed and then continued once more, "Step five, kill six other humans and take their souls. I am sure they will mind, so don't think just do it quick enough so they won't know what happened to them. Maybe kill the elderly, they don't have much time left anyways right? Anyways, step six, hurry home. Run if you have to and bring my body with, please. You will have all seven souls including mine and we will be enough to destroy the barrier!" I finished it off with this plan sounding amazing but when I glanced over at him he was crying.

He then sniffed and said, "B-but you will d-die! I'm not g-going to let you die!"

I hugged him and said, "I won't be dead. My body will be dead. My soul will still be alive as ever and since you will absorb it then I can still talk to you and you will feel my presents with you at all times. Yes, my body will by gone and dead. But my living being, my soul, will still be alive and I can travel around as a ghost." I actually didn't know if any of that worked but I worked with it. "See I'll never leave you. I promise." That was a promise I was determined to keep. Asriel is my brother and I could never lie to him!

Asriel seemed hesitant and began to protest that I shouldn't just give up on myself but I assured him that everything would be fine. He sat down on a rock and I took the opportunity to dive into the miles of buttercups and started rapidly plucking them and shoving them all in my mouth at once. I chomped down so hard on the petals that I crushed my lips along with it. It burned my lips and gums so badly but I was determined. I choked on them but I didn't care, I just kept putting more in my mouth. There was blood pouring out of my mouth but I kept shoving handfuls of buttercups in.

After Asriel got his thoughts straighted up he realized what I was doing. He screamed for me to stop but I ignored him. He sprinted over to me and tried ripping me away from the flower garden but I didn't go down without a fight. I turned looked him in the eyes, both of us had tears, but only one of us had blood and yellow flower pedals sticking out of their mouth. I shoved him away reluctantly and continued to devour those poisonous flowers. Then Asriel was desperately shaking my back trying to get me to stop and he was bawling. He was yelling something. I didn't listen I shoved another batch of flowers into my mouth. I felt awful I felt deprived of determination for a second but it immediately came back and I continued eating Buttercups. Then Asriel suddenly just stopped trying to stop me and collapsed on the rocky ground and covered his face and cried. He knew the deed was done and he knew what he had gotten himself into.

After I finished at least ten batches of buttercups I was to dizzy to stand up. I turned towards Asriel where he was crying. I touched my lips and noticed they were bloody and completely destroyed. Teeth marks on my upper lip while my bottom lip was crushed up and gone. It was bad and hurt like hell. I sat in solum silence for a minute. I attempted to smiled and then recited in my head, you should be smiling. Your going to be free! Everyone will be free! A tear fell from my eyes and I crawled over to Asriel and hugged him tight. He tried to pull away but I hugged him tighter. I whispered, "I-I'm so
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We both cried and hugged for awhile. Now Asriel wasn't the crybaby we both were. Until I suddenly stop and launched myself over behind the big rock and vomited. I was hurt, I am hurting, and have hurted others. Now I've hurt Asriel and he will always be broken inside. He knew I was going to die. I just killed myself. He is so upset he didn't understand. He didn't understand that it will be for the greater good. All of them will be free! Now he probably felt guilty for not stopping me. He probably felt like he killed me himself. He probably felt dead inside. This is all my fault! Wasn't it?

But me... what was wrong with me. He felt horrible while I felt... well, nothing. Absolutely nothing at all. It was the weirdest feeling, you know. Knowing your going to die at any time and knowing your going to shatter everyone's happiness. Most people who know their dying maybe feel mad, sad, look back at the happy memories and laugh. But me. I had nothing. I was now just waiting for death. I guess then I was nothing to anyone.

Then I realized that the poison was kicking in faster than I expected at the time and I couldn't hold my body weight anymore. I laid down in the now bloody golden flowers and began to cough up blood. Asriel wiped his tears and watched in horror. Then he frantically stood up and and ran for help. My ears began to buzz and my vision became fuzzy. I just really hoped he wouldn't tell anyone. Everything was blurring out into darkness. It reminded me back six years ago when I first fell into the Underground.

While I was concentrating on trying to stay breathing. I barely heard Asriel drag Undyne into the Throne room. Undyne rushed over to me and knelt down and was telling me something but I didn't hear it. She gently rolled me on my back and the bright lights blinded me, they seemed way to bright. Undyne looked really panicked and distressed. She then hurled me into her arms and I could feel the wind rushing on my face. She was sprinting me to my house and was yelling at people who were in her way. Everything seemed like a blur. I felt like I was in a bubble just blowing away. None of my senses where working! I tried everything. All I knew is that I was dying and my God it was so painful.