Don't let me go?

Chapter 07

Author's Note
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Candice's POV

As soon as I told Harry that I was writing my journal, he bid me Good Night so that I won't get disturbed.

He never fails to astonish me with his manners. I do not remember the last time I encountered someone with such manners. Once we bid each other good night, I started writing my journal.

Dear Diary,
Today was the first day at my high school, but I do not know how to feel about it. Should I feel good about the fact that for the first time in forever, someone tried to be my friend or should I be upset and sad about the fact that I was bullied, again?

Apart from that sadness, I actually felt a little better when I went to the cafe with Harry, until he brought up Veronica's topic.

Just her name makes me flinch and brings back countless nightmares. She makes me weak and vulnerable. But I have to be strong.. If not for myself, at least for mom.

She always used to say, "There's no place for weaknesses in this evil world. People take advantage of your weakness and make you vulnerable."

That is exactly what is happening to me. I wish mom was here with me, to help me through all this, to talk to me, to hug me tight, to fix my broken pieces, to guide me, and just to be with me. Her mere existence was enough to heal me.

I never thought I could miss anyone to the extent of experiencing physical pain, until she left me. Now I feel a bag of stones over my heart. It hurts to know that I would never see her again.

I'm so lonely and lost without her. I'm like a wrecked and abandoned ship in a lonely sea.. without any direction.

But I know, she is always with me, even if not physically."

I saw a few tears drop on my journal, and I realised I was crying. I took a long breath, finished writing and closed it.

I heard the door bell ring and I got of my bed to open the door. I saw Liam standing there, looking tired and weary.

"Hey Candy." He greeted me.

"Hey. You look so tired! Should I get you something to eat, you must be hungry?" I offered.

"No, thanks Candy. I'm too tired, I just want to sleep." He replied.

With this, he walked towards his bedroom, and I walked towards mine.

I made myself comfortable in the bed. I tried sleeping but I couldn't. I just kept tossing and turning in the bed. I turned around to see the time in the clock, placed beside my bed and it read "12:30"

It was past midnight, and I couldn't sleep at all. So I decided to get out of my bed. I walked towards the door of my bedroom and tip toed outside, not to wake Liam up.

I went up to the terrace. The weather was actually pretty nice out here. The moon was shining so bright, cool wind was blowing and so many stars shone above!

The entire atmosphere was so peaceful. I generally come up here to talk to my mom. I feel at peace here, away from all the noises, away from all the worldly tensions.

I spotted the brightest star in the sky and whispered "Second star to the right, and straight on till the morning" This was something me and mom used to say to each other when I was a kid.

I started talking to the star, pouring my heart out, in a hope that my mom is listening to me.

After a while, I started feeling cold, so I decided to go down. I blew a kiss to the star, bid it good night and told my mom I love her and went back to the room.

I was finally feeling a little more peaceful. It was almost 2:30 in the morning. I didn't even realise the time. I decided to sleep, else I would have trouble getting up in the morning.

***

My alarm clock rang and I woke up, with a headache. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to sleep so late.

I got up and headed straight to the bathroom, brushed my teeth and took a shower.

I picked out a black sweatshirt and black jeans to wear with white sneakers.

I noticed the bags under my eyes, getting bigger. But I was reluctant to cover them because it doesn't matter, I was gonna get bullied anyway!

I hate going to school and facing everything, but I do not have any other choice. I pulled my long hair into a pony tail, not putting in any efforts trying to look good.

I got out of my room, only to find Liam still in his bed. I decided not to wake him up so I just poured some milk and cereal in a bowl for myself.

Soon, I finished my breakfast and got up, to leave for school but decided to write down a note for Liam, saying that I already left, and so I did.

I walked to the school and entered the first class, which was Biology.

I entered the class and and saw Harry and Niall. They flashed me genuine smiles and offered me to sit between them.

I sat between both of them, and the class began. They cracked so many jokes in the class. They both managed to keep me smiling throughout the class, which is a very rare thing to happen.

The class ended and we walked out.

"I'm going to the canteen. I'm so hungry." Niall said excitedly.

"It's just 9 in the morning and the first class has just ended, you're hungry already? Didn't you have your breakfast?" Harry chuckled and asked him.

"I did, I ate pancakes. But I'm hungry again. It's never a No from me, for food." He laughed and walked towards the canteen excitedly.

I laughed at his excitement for food. He lives eating so much.

"So, what should we do? We have a break for 15 minutes!" Harry asked me.

"Umm.. Let's just sit somewhere." I replied.

I was actually very tired and sleepy today, because if my decision of staying up till almost 3 in the morning.

"Sure. Let's go to the playground and chill in the sun for a while." He offered.

We walked towards the playground but I instantly regretted coming there, since I saw Veronica and her whole group there.

Author's Note
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