Don't let me go?

Chapter 30

Harry's POV

I wouldn't say I was expecting a 100% yes, but I didn't expect a straight away No either. I was totally baffled and had no idea what to do next. I just got up, looked at her and forced a smiled and said

"It's okay Rose. No problem. I'm sorry."

She had tears in her eyes and I couldn't see it happening in front of me. I so wanted to hug her and comfort her but I didn't think it would be an appropriate reaction at this given point of time.

"You don't have to be sorry Harry. I am." She said.

"Can I hug you?" I asked her, cutting down the confusion in my head.

As soon as I uttered those words, she moved towards me and hugged me. My world seems so complete when she's in my arms but unfortunately my world wouldn't actually be complete...ever. She doesn't love me. I felt so sad about my love staying incomplete and it hurts to know that for the first time I felt so strongly about someone and it didn't work out at all. I don't know what I will do. I'm gutted.

At the same time, I felt so stupid for doing all this. It was a bad idea to make her go through all of this. What saddens me the most is that I've lost a friend, perhaps my best friend. We would never be the same. She would never be able to see me like the same old Harry whom she once considered her best friend. I've ruined everything. I closed my eyes and rested my chin on her head, embracing this moment because we might never have this thing again.

Candice's POV

I felt a tear drop on my forehead and that's when I realised Harry was crying. Shit! What have I done? No no no. This can't be happening.

"Harry, please don't cry." I tried to look at him to comfort him.

I couldn't look him in the eye for more than a few seconds. His eyes were turning dark green and they started looking red on the outer area. I couldn't stand the sight of him crying because of me.

"Harry, please don't cry. It hurts me to see you like this. Please stop crying. I'm so sorry. I'm so stupid." I spoke.

"Please don't be sorry Rose. I'll be fine. I'll be fine. I'm sorry for all of t-this mess." His voice cracked.

"This is no mess Harry. I am." I clarified.

"In that case, you're the most adorable mess."  He chuckled a bit.

Even in a moment like this, he wanted to make me smile. Only Harry can do this.

"Come I'll drive you back home." 

We walked towards the parking lot and he opened the passenger seat door and helped me get in.

No matter what happens, Harry still remains the same. He never falters and never forgets to treat me the best he can.

The drive was silent. We didn't speak at all which started getting a little uncomfortable for me but I still didn't initiate a conversation.

After a while my house came into view and I got off, bid him good night and went upstairs.

Harry's POV

The things have started to change already. We didn't talk at all during the drive. All thanks to me.

I dropped her home and started driving back home. On my way, I came across the same park I took Rose to.

I halted my car there and went to the same spot we went to earlier.

It was a dark moonless night, letting the stars light up the sky. I don't think I'll ever be able to look at them the same way. Whenever I'll look at them, I'll miss her.

That's the thing about love. It gives a lot if it is mutual, but it takes everything with it, if it's one sided. Whatever I'll look at, I'll find something that reminds me of her.

I know whenever I'll see her name, a delicate and beautiful girl will be in my imagination. Whenever it'll rain, I'll recall the experience I had with her, whenever I'll see the stars, I'll remember her. Whenever I'll listen to some old song, I'll recall her love for them. Whenever someone holds my hand, I'd wish it was her. Whenever someone hugs me, I know I'll miss her warmth. I know whenever I'll breathe, I'll miss her because she made my existence beautiful.

She! What a miracle she was. But she's not mine.

I let the tears flow down. I didn't want to stop myself. If there's pain, I gotta own it and feel it. I'd have to fake so many things and emotions.

I entered home and went straight to my room. I didn't feel like talking to anyone because that would just increase the already existing lump in my throat.

Candice's POV

I came back home and went straight to the room. I didn't know what to say, what to feel or what to do. Everything that happened made me totally numb. It was like all my senses have taken a break. My mind was totally blank and not a single thought was coherent.

I took a shower and went to bed, but sleep definitely was not gonna be my sweet companion tonight.

It's gonna be a long night.

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