Don't let me go?

Chapter 22

Author' Note.

Hey guys, Thank you for all the support that you've been providing for the book but I just wanted to make a small apology here for not steering the story according to the suggestions. I want the characters to first know about what Love actually is and then move forward to confessing it. I didn't want it to be a story about two friends dating each other and falling in love later. So there'll be no smut or anything related to it for a considerable amount of time. Things would fall into line at the right time. Till then, I hope you guys enjoy the journey to it. Happy Reading. <3

Harry's POV

I came back home after dropping Rose home and no one was there. So I took a shower, changed my clothes and was listening to music, which was blurry for me because a lot was on going in my brain. I feel this strange sense of happiness by making her smile.

I know it would have been an emotional and a super hard moment for her to go back to a place which has the power to bring back so many dark memories. But I'm so glad that the day ended with a smile on her face.

I've been with a couple of girls earlier but the way I feel when I'm around Rose is so different and unique. My day feels so much lighter and brighter when I'm with her. Her presence does something indescribable to me. When I'm around her I wanna make her the happiest girl and when I'm not around her, I keep thinking about her. No one has ever had this kind of an impact on me. And trust me when I say, I've been with girls.

I never expected that I would feel so strongly for someone in just a couple of days. There's this magnetic aura around her that draws me into her world. A world that is so different, so innocent and so pure. Who wouldn't like to be part of it?

But I absolutely don't think she would ever like me. She's such a reserved person, she would never let me in. Maybe it's my fault for mistaking her friendly behavior with me to be anything more than friendship.

I hope I'll resurface before falling deep for her.

But what if I don't? How difficult can it be for me to conceal my feelings under the tag of friendship, and more importantly, for how long? Wouldn't it feel like betrayal to her if she ever finds out?

She has absolutely no idea about my feelings. She doesn't know how her presence is enough to make me forget about all the negativity, how my world silences out all the noises when she speaks, how everything else blurs out when she smiles, how everything in my world crashes down when she cries, how helpless I feel when I don't know how to console her in the bad times, how I want the time to freeze when we're together, and how I never wanna let go of her when she hugs me.

There are so many unsaid, unspoken words between us. But would it be the right thing to let her know all this? Probably not. Probably I should take sometime to assure myself about these new feelings. But what do I name these feelings?

Attraction?

I don't think I should use the term I've already used for my casual flings and in anyway associate Rose with them. She's too precious to be associated with it.

What else could they be?

Empathy?

But doesn't that make whatever we have between us some sort of a social help and makes me look like a person who's with the damsel in distress just for the time until she becomes the fierce queen?

Could it be 'Love'?

I wouldn't say I know a lot about love. But a couple of days back I read quote which reads "If you're capable of making choices that knowingly hurts the other person, that's not Love." And I believe it's so true. Never in my wildest dreams would I ever want to hurt Rose in any possible ways. She has just started to trust me a bit and maybe finds a friend in me. I cannot confess it all to her and hurt her, knowingly.

I was into thinking about all of this when the door bell rang. It was mom and Gemma. For some strange reason, they looked upset to me.

"What happened mom?" I asked.

"Your grandmother is really sick. And we need to go visit her for a couple of days. We leave tomorrow morning." She said in a low tone.

"Whattt!! What happened to her?" I shrieked.

"She had a heart attack."

I hugged my mom because she needed it so bad, her sadness was so evident in her face.

I went to my room to pack my bags. I just hope she is doing fine. It's been a while since I last saw her but I definitely keep in touch with her. She's probably the coolest grandma ever. I love her so much, I hope she gets better soon.

It took me an hour to finally pack my bags. I felt like I should inform Rose about it so I texted her..

"Hey Rose, I'll be out of town for about a week or fortnight. My grandma is sick so I need to visit her in Sydney. So, I might not be able to talk or call frequently. But if you ever need me, I'll be a text away. Take care. I'll see you in a couple of days. Good night. I'll miss you. Hugs." I texted.

"Hey Harry. I'm really sorry to hear about your grandma. I hope she gets better soon. I'll pray for her. And yeah, if you need someone to talk to, I'll be here too. Have a safe flight and take care. I'll miss you too. Good night." She replied.

Candice's POV

For some reason Harry's text made me sad. Firstly because his grandma is not well and he sounded worried about it. Secondly, he'll be away for more than a week. Which is definitely a long time. I have no idea what will I do at school. But I understand how important it is for him to go. I hope his grandma gets well soon.

It was getting quite late so I decided to go to bed. But it was getting nearly impossible for me to fall asleep. My head has been preoccupied with so many things lately. So I was just lying in my bed, staring at the ceiling blankly, waiting for the sleep to dawn upon me, which it finally did.

I was woken up by my alarm which I strongly despise. I absolutely didn't feel like pulling myself out of bed. But I had to.

I reluctantly got ready, had my breakfast and left for school.