Don't let me go?

Chapter 21

Candice's POV

I confessed it in front of Niall without making any eye contact, because it would be so embarrassing if I did.

"Harrrryyy?? You mean Harrrryyy Styles!?" His voice getting louder due to the excitement.

By this time it was getting difficult for me to judge who's level of excitement was higher. Mine or Niall's?
Damn, this boy is way too much full of energy and life. It's so difficult to contain him.

"I guess he's the only Harry I know, Niall?"

"Damn!! Why didn't I notice any sparks?"

"Niall you're not making things easier."

"Okay Okay, I'm sorry. I just got a little excited."

"I wouldn't call that little."

"Hahahaha I can see my sense of humour rubbing off on you already."

"Haaahh! You wish!"

"Okay now tell meeeee all about it." He whined like a kid.

"Okay so we were taking a walk in a nearby park a couple of hours ago. He said something about making me smile and I hugged him. But I don't know why but I got butterflies in my stomach. Firstly, I have no idea why I hugged him. Secondly, no idea why I got that weird sensation." I explained to him.

"Well if you ask me Candice, I'd say you're attracted towards Harry. Because firstly, you just don't go around hugging people. Being the reserved person you are, you don't like letting people into your personal space. But you let Harry in, even if it was unintentional. Secondly, the butterflies, another indicator that you're falling in loveeee with him." He purposely stretched the word "Love" to tease me.

I threw a cushion at him.

"Why would you hit me Candice? I'm just trying to help you out in the matters of loveeeee."

He did that again and I was making faces at him.

"You better not do that again." I said, chuckling a bit.

"Hahahahah it's fun seeing you get all red. I like your blush!! But okay, let's talk it all out of you." He finally sat beside me.

"I don't even know why do I love Harry? I mean it's just been a couple of days since I know him. And I don't see reasons to feel that way so soon." I asked him.

"You see Candice, you don't know why you love Harry because loving someone due to reasons is not loving."

I made weird faces because I couldn't understand what he meant and I guess he caught that.

"Okay wait, let me explain it to you. See, there's no definite definition of love because everyone loves differently. But what sets apart Love from all the other emotions is that love is not selfish. It seeks no reasons and no explanations.

If you say you love someone due to some particular reason, that's not even love. Because some day or the other that particular reason can vanish away. But love? It never vanishes away. It's there to stay. It doesn't end with the end of some temporary reasons.

So, I'd say if you wanna love? Love without finding reasons. And the moment you find yourself seeking reasons to love the person, know that it wasn't even love, it was just temporary affection that you felt."

I just sat there in utter silence trying to comprehend what he meant. And I was so surprised because I didn't know Niall had this side too. I never knew, the guy who was always so funny could say something this deep.

"I can't believe I'm hearing all this from you, Niall."

"Hahahaha I'm not as stupid as I act."

"But Niall, what do I do now?!" I asked him nervously.

"You should probably talk to Harry." He suggested.

"NO WAY!!! There's no way I'm letting Harry know anything about this at all." I shrieked.

"But, whyyy not?!"

"I don't even know if likes me Niall. And I cannot put my friendship with him at stake due to this. If he doesn't like me back, I'll lose him and his friendship. And I cannot afford to lose that."

"But how will you know about his feelings until and unless you don't talk about it? You'll have to take a fall without thinking much?" He tried to persuade me.

"No Niall, No!! I'm not gonna take the fall until and unless I'm sure that he'll be there to catch me." I told him.

"Love is not about catching, it's about falling..falling without the fear of consequences. But that's okay Candice, I'll leave the final decision in your hands."

I just got up and gave Niall a friendly hug. He's been of tremendous help to me tonight. Talking about all this feels like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. The feelings were too much to contain, ranting them out makes me feel lighter.

Niall decided that he should probably head home, so we bid each other good night and he drove off.

After seeing him off, I went into my room, changed into my comfy night clothes and was lounging around in the balcony. I was thinking about the conversation me and Niall had. Somewhere down the line, I was trying to find reasons for which I could be getting attracted towards Harry. Could it be because he's so caring? Could it be because he's so polite, or could it be his manners, or chivalry, or his warm touch, or his embrace, or his kindness, or his dimpled smile, or his charming looks?!!!

My mind was flooded with possible reasons  but I couldn't just land up on one. I see no definite reason to love him, which was..Scary!

Love definitely is Scary!! 

It's so hard to decide if this would be a warm ray of sunshine in my life or just another tornado in disguise?