Don't let me go?

Chapter 15

Harry's POV

It was an awesome day with Candice. What's better than skipping school, having a lazy day at home and watching movies? Little did she know, she was watching the movie, but I was watching her. She watched the movie so attentively and she had that twinkle in her eyes.

The way she cried by the end of the movie, tells a lot about her. It shows how empathetic she can be, how she can feel the pain that others feel. But to see her cry, be it for any reason, pangs me in the heart. She is so sweet, caring and lovable. She has been through so much in life at such a young age, that I can't stand her tears anymore.

All she deserves in life is happiness, and nothing else. And today was the tiniest attempt of mine, to make her smile, to make her happy. I had never shown my music room to anyone else because it was my 'hide-out' place, it was somewhere I go when I feel blue. But for some strange reason, I wanted her to be a part of it. Maybe because she needs that peace more than I do?

I just hope I didn't fail at my attempt, and that she goes to her bed smiling tonight, just like I'm about to.

Candice's POV

I took a quick shower and changed into my pyjamas, and now I was sitting on my bed, relaxing and listening to some music. After about an hour, Liam came home. It's been a while since I saw him that happy. He had a genuine smile on his face and he looked really happy. He, once again had the spark in is eyes, that was long gone. Maybe that's what love does to us. Maybe spending a day with someone you genuinely love is enough to take away all the sorrows and replace it with a twinkle which had been missing for so long. I'm so happy that he has found someone he loves deeply, someone he can share himself with.

We talked about our day, and discussed some random stuff at dinner. After that, we both headed towards our respective rooms. It's gonna be a long night for me, considering the fact that tomorrow, or actually in the next hour, when the clock strikes 12, it my mom's birthday.

This is for the first time, that she is not here with me. She always had this thing about birthdays. I was the kind of girl, who was never really excited about birthdays. For me they were just another day. I didn't really like growing up, because growing up would mean being responsible, being away from family, getting stressed about studies, money, relationships, fights and what not.

But my mother on the other hand, being the lively soul she was, was always excited about birthdays. She taught me that this is a special day. She used to say,

"A birthday is the only day each year that is completely devoted to you. It is a day for you to remember how special you are and to appreciate and celebrate the unique individual that you are. No matter how you choose to spend your birthday, take the time to at least do one thing special to make the day stand out from all the other days in the year. Spend time with the people who are special to you, to acknowledge the importance of this day."

Just by the thought of this, tears took their place in my eyes. How do I celebrate her birthday without her? She was the most special person in my life. All that I am, I am because of her. My mere existence is her gift.

She has no idea of the void that has been created in my life, since the day she left. It's like a massive hole has been created in my heart, which can never be covered.

It was almost 23:55 when I decided to wipe my tears and go to the terrace. I went up to the terrace and saw the sky. It was a clear night, and so many stars were shining bright. It's not that common to find a clear night sky here, because of the city lights and pollution, but today it was unusual. It was almost like the brightest star is my mom and all the other stars were her guests who have come to wish her.

My phone beeped which indicated that it was 12am already. I looked at the brightest star, and wished my mom.

"Happy Birthday Mom. This is for the first time that you're not here with me, and you have no idea how much that hurts. This pain is excruciating and is getting unbearable day by day. People say that pain decreases with time, but that is not true for me. This pain, this hurt and this void just keeps on increasing day by day without you. There's not a single day I don't miss you mom.

Every day, even getting out of the bed seems so hard, let alone survive the entire day. You were my lighthouse mom, and without you, I'm just lost in this eternal darkness. I don't see even a ray of light at the end of this tunnel.

Mom, I just want you to know, that I love you and I miss you so much. You'll always be the angel of my life. I know, somewhere far away from here, you're looking down on me. And for me, that's everything. Don't ever leave my side mom, or I wouldn't survive a day. Happy Birthday Once Again Mom.
Second star to the right, straight on til morning?"

After wishing her, I wiped my tears and sat down on the terrace, just talking to my mom, telling her about my day and stuffs.

I'm sure somewhere out there, she's listening. As soon as I turned around, I saw Liam standing there with tears in his eyes.

"Umm.. How long have you been here, Liam?"

"Let's just say, I heard your secret conversation with mom. I went to your room but you weren't there, so I figured you'd be here."

"Hmm.. Yeah.. I couldn't sleep."

"I know Candy. Come here." He pulled me into a hug.

"I miss her so much Liam, it hurts." I sobbed.

"I know Candy. I know exactly how you feel, because I miss her too." He rubbed my back in an attempt to soothe me.

"Let's go inside, yeah? It's been more than an hour since you've been here."

"Yeah. Okay. Good Night mom. I love you." I greeted my mom and walked back towards my room.

"Just try to get some sleep okay? Good Night."

"You too Liam. Good night."

How can anyone expect me to sleep sound in a place where each and every single thing reminds me of her?

Liam went to his room downstairs and that's when I snuck into her room.. My mom's room.

Author's Note
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