“Do you think I should’ve brought Ella?” I asked Liam as he drove. I kept my gaze fixed on the window as we sped down the highway. “And my parents?”
“You said you wanted to do this alone, didn’t you?”
“Yeah. But I don’t know. I feel like I’m being selfish about all of this.”
“You’re not being selfish,” Liam assured. “I know this is hard on you.”
But it’s hard on them too, I thought. I took a deep breath and shut my eyes, leaning my head back.
“Thank you for driving me,” I said.
“No problem.”
“Have you ever done this before?”
“Done what?”
“Visited the grave of someone you love?” I clarified. He thought for a moment, then shook his head no.
“Never.”
I took a deep breath and thought over how this would go. I would undoubtedly cry. That’s all I ever seemed to do these days. I just hoped I didn’t get too out of hand. I could get pretty scary when I let my emotions go, and the last thing I wanted was for Liam to see me like that. I’d have to keep it together.
We drove for a few minutes longer before the car slowly started decreasing its speed.
“Liam,” I said cautiously. “Why are we stopping?”
“Shit,” he muttered, pulling to the side of the road. I glanced at the gas meter to see that his tank was empty.
“You forgot to get gas,” I stated. He looked so apologetic, like he sincerely felt awful.
“I’m so sorry,” he said truthfully. I shook my head.
“No, its fine,” I said as my eyes began to water. Great. I’m going to cry now? Really? I had been holding back tears all day just thinking about this visit. And now that it wasn’t even happening, I started breaking down.
“No it’s not,” Liam replied, looking like he wanted to do something about my tears. “I’ll call someone to come get us, and we can still go.”
“I should’ve brought my parents,” I said, hardly even talking to Liam at this point. I was mostly just talking. “I should’ve brought my family with me, but I didn’t because I’m selfish.”
The tears were flowing at this point with no clear signs of stopping any time soon. “You’re not-“
“I’m so goddamn selfish! They don’t even know I’m here right now! I just wanted to visit Aria and I didn’t even care about what anyone else wanted. I should’ve told them. I should’ve brought them! She wasn’t just my sister! She was Ella’s sister and my parents’ daughter! I’m being so greedy and they don’t even know how greedy I’m being! I’m a terrible person and a terrible-“
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Don't Let Go || Liam Payne
Fiksi PenggemarHaving a sister with cancer is not easy, but Aria has always been a fighter. An inspiration if you will. Now, I've heard the survivor stories, but what about the people who don't make it? For them, there comes a time when they truly believe they can...
