If you have an insecurity as big as mine and a mind as weak as mine you'd understand why I do what I do and I don't what I don't. I put everything into the way I look because I am not happy with the way I look, this isn't something that I can just get over, it's something that's been with me for years, I remember on my first day of pre k, I had to wear school shorts, I hated it, I felt uncomfortable and I didn't wear shorts after that until I was in the 6th grade. I wore shorts my first time on Easter that year and then later to a school dance. I slouch when I walk and when I sit because I'm trying to hide my body and I always wear baggy outerwear. I almost never not have on a jacket do to the hatred I have of my arms and the scars on them but that's my fault. I avoid arguments, especially on social media at all circumstances because literally every time i've gotten into an argument they eventually all tell me the same thing. The hatred I have for myself is overwhelming, overbearing and probably unbelievable to anyone else. If I do not look decent, I do not want to be seen. The only place I'd go looking un presentable is school because I do not even want to be there. And I've known those people since the sixth grade. I am tired and weary and before you ask why i've done nothing for myself, just know that I am working to improve myself.
