why wasn't i born skinny? why was everyone around me born with fast metabolisms and wide appetites but i was the exception? why am i not skinny? am i not worthy enough? why must boys look down on me like the scum of the earth why must i look down on myself why wasn't i born skinny? was my reason for existing only to hate myself? to have my mother, peers and society ridicule me? to have clothes laugh at me to feel uncomfortable and ashamed of who i am? why was i not born skinny? was i meant to struggle with looking at myself in the mirror was i meant to feel like i am not worthy of gracing the skinny goddesses presence tell me please, why am i not skinny? was i meant to cry myself to sleep because i never knew the feeling of being thin, the feeling of not being afraid to give myself away, the feeling of being nothingness. i am not skinny. oh but how i wish i was oh how i wish i could be. i just want to be skinny.
