All We Do ↠ Bellamy Blake

chapter nineteen

'You have to love somebody that much

To also hate them that much, too.'

Sherman Alexie

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It had been a long day but Olivia had found it impossible to sleep, so she found herself in the spot she usually went to, up on her favourite tree. After Bellamy had stormed into camp, they'd all spotted the Exodus ship coming down, confused as it was too early. The parachute didn't deploy and it landed in a huge explosion that would have definitely killed everyone on board.

Olivia tried to reach out to Clarke, whose mother would have been aboard the ship but she'd disappeared, not wanting to speak to anyone. Now she was racked with worries of if Clarke was going to be okay, if Lincoln and Orion were doing well and if Bellamy would ever trust her again.

The communication to the Ark had cut off during Jaha's speech but no one had panicked, thinking it was nothing. Now, almost a day later, they still couldn't reach the Ark and it was nerve racking.

There was some rustles from the trunk of the tree, pulling Olivia from her thoughts. She furrowed her eyebrows, looking down to see that it was Clarke, slowly climbing the tree. She struggled somewhat, taking a while to get up there but eventually did.

Eyes wide, Olivia shuffled over to make space for her, the both of them sat on the branch. "I don't know how you do that so often," Clarke groaned, looking at her hands, "I think I got a splinter."

"Are you okay?" Olivia frowned, appraising Clarke's features in concern.

There were tears in her eyes. "I can see why you like it up here though," Clarke ignored the question, staring out at the camp and trees. "You can see most of camp and way further if not for the trees. The stars feel closer as well."

"The Ark is closer," Olivia nodded, looking up at it in the sky. She wondered why communication had cut off and hoped that everyone was okay. She felt guilty since Clarke had lost her mother but she couldn't help the relief that she felt that none of her family had been picked for the first Exodus ship.

"I..." Clarke started but her voice cracked, "I don't have anyone left on the Ark for me." Olivia looked over at her in surprise as she continued, "I made the same mistake with my mom as I did with Wells. I let her die thinking that I hated her." The tears fell from her eyes this time, streaking down her cheeks.

Not knowing what to say, Olivia put an arm around Clarke's shoulder and pulled her in close, letting her cry on her. "I wish I could tell you that it's okay Clarke," Olivia frowned, "But at the moment it isn't. What I can say is that one day it will be okay, one day you'll be okay and you'll feel better."

Clarke continued crying; she wasn't sure for how long, eventually drying her eyes. Her head remained rested against Olivia for comfort as she sniffed, "Thank you, Liv."

Olivia gently rubbed her shoulder, stating cautiously, "I thought you might be mad at me for keeping Orion a secret."

"I was," Clarke nodded, "But something tells me Bellamy gave you an earful about it already and... I didn't know who else I could go to about this. You may have kept that secret, Olivia but I still trust you."

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Day Twenty-One

Everyone was nervous the next day as they geared up to go check out the crash site. After she'd comforted Clarke, Olivia had tried to get some sleep and left Clarke some time to be alone. It had been hard but she'd managed to squeeze some sleep in. She knew that heading to the crash site would be the hardest part for Clarke, so she was worried how the day would go. Not to mention, she had no idea how Bellamy would respond to her after their argument the previous night.