Starting Over (Being Edited)

Chapter 18 - Awake

Sofia's P.O.V

            I didn't know what to think anymore. I'm so confused, and I don't know what to do. At all. I mean, I love Craig, or at least I think I do. Or I did. We were such great friends since, I don't know, forever, and we had kept in touch over the past couple of years, but, I felt different around him. Almost like, I had outgrown him Like that old blanket you had as a kid, it was comfortable and protected you, but you didn't want to have it forever. We should never have dated. It ruined everything. But then there's him...who I've always have loved, in a different way than Craig.

            "Just click on it Sofia. There will always be another guy, and if you're meant to be with him, you will be." I tried to tell myself, as I sat in front of the bright computer screen. So, I clicked on it.

Harry's P.O.V

            "We're here to see Liam Payne, do you know what room he's in?" I asked hesitantly. I wasn't even sure if we were allowed to see him, and judging by the look on the nurse's face, I doubted we were going to be.

            "He's in room 209, on the second floor. But you all need to sign in before you can go." She handed Kath a clipboard and a couple of pens. "Listen," she whispered, leaning in closer, "It's not technically allowed to have more than 3 guests, but...just be quiet and try not to draw a lot of attention to yourselves."

            "Thank you." Emma smiled, handing the clipboard to me.

            "Yeah, thank you." I said, placing the clipboard back on the desk. Our overly sized group of people; me, Kath, Zayn, Louis, Kayleigh, Emma, and Niall, made our way to the elevators.

            "Look, if we don't want to draw attention to ourselves, why don't some of us take the stairs. It'll look less...conspicuous." Niall suggested, holding open the door to the stairs open. Zayn and Emma made their way over, and Niall held up the rear, closing the door behind him. The rest of us waited in the hallway by the elevators, for what seemed like ages before an elevator opened up. We all shuffled in through the doors quietly.

            "Maybe we should have taken the stairs too, seems it might've been faster." Kayleigh joked, trying to lighten up the mood. Louis smiled and grasped her hand tighter, looking slightly pale. When the elevator finally made it to the second floor we all burst out of the doors, and sprawled into the hallway, bumping into the others on the way. Our walking seemed to slow down as we got closer and closer to room 209. None of us had any clue of what we were getting ourselves into. No one knew what had happened during the surgery, no one knew how Liam was doing, how sick he looked, or how much pain he was in. We knew nothing.

Sofia's P.O.V

            I sat nervously down in the closest seat by the door. I couldn't wait to get off of this train and be back home. As the train started to move, I couldn't help but let a tear fall. I had just said goodbye, for pretty much ever, to the one guy I thought I would have married and lived a long life with. He had been the only one I wanted. And he had cared about me. I knew that if I wanted to find the right guy for me, I would have to look. I used to think that if I wanted to, I could lean back on Zayn, because he would be waiting for me. But I now knew that was no longer true. There was no way Zayn would want me back, I had no doubt in my mind he has moved on. He was probably back with his ex, Rachel. I don't blame him, not at all. If I had been as vulnerable as he was, and then be turned down....I would make sure to never get back together with that person, no matter how much I loved them.

            Wait...did I love Zayn? What am I talking about? I didn't like him that much in the first place, but love? That's totally out of the question. I couldn't even worry about that now. I had to worry about Liam. I was so nervous. I mean, Louis sounded terrified when he had heard what had happened, and I was too. Just a few more hours and I would be there, able to be with my true family.