Learning To Love✔ (Shivika)

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#Chapter_82

#Additional_chapter

You guys can avoid this chapter if you want...
It is just for better understanding and clarification of characters.

#Saumya's pov-

I left shivaay's cabin as I couldn't able heard more venom by him for his own love.

Yes,I loved him and I'm still loving him or maybe I'll always do but that didn't mean that I wanted him or his love.

{A/N-
Following contents are self scribbled so maybe your pov can be different from it.

It's my point of view regarding "love"...what's your????
Let me know...}

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When you care for someone,

When you feel for someone,

When you cry for someone,

When you smile for someone,

When you sacrifice for someone,

When you feel every emotions for someone,

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And at the end-

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you try your best to forget someone,

You try your best to move on,

You try your best to forgive someone,

You try your best to hate someone,

You try your best to vanish existence of someone,

You try your best to avoid someone,

You try your best to ignore and not get affected by someone,

But...

But you fail miserably...

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Then believe me you're in love and you'll be ALWAYS...

Either you have to accept the fact and suffer,

Or you can fight with your feelings and suffer.

But you can't love anyone else because you're heart not belongs to you anymore.

When you can't see pain,hurt,tears in someone's eyes.

When you can't see them alone,lonely.

It's love.

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And the same happened with me.

I didn't know when I started loving shivaay.

I thought we were around the 8th standards in school but I couldn't bear any girl near him.

At that time I didn't understand my feelings but yeah with the on going  time my possessiveness and love reached at it peak.

Then only I realized that I loved him,only him even before I knew or understand what is love!!!

My childhood was more than awesome because there were only us,me and my shivaay.

He cared for me too much and I was the only family for him and I mistook it as a love.

I still remember the day when after getting all my courage I had proposed him but my heart broken in to million pieces when I came to know that for him I was only his best friend...his family...but not his love.

Believe me or not but most painful news for any girl that whom she loves from almost more than decades with all her heart,soul but he loves someone else.

When you had to see your love with someone else.

I knew I sound like a selfish bitch but I couldn't able to digest the fact that he was all happy and unaffected without me when he had shared almost 22 years of his life with me.

How!!!

How could he live like nothing happened???

I understood that he wasn't in love with me but that didn't mean that he can completely forgot me!!!

We had shared 22 bloody years with each other!!!

Couldn't I expect little care or love from him for his so called friendship's shake?????

Shouldn't I expect that he should miss me!!!

Was this sound wrong???

How could he forgot me so easily!!!

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It hurts when you love someone and that person doesn't love you back.
But
It broke you down when the person whom you love someone else.
And
It kills when the person you love forget your existence in their life.
Even
After so many years of togetherness
It kill to you and even lead to killing of someone else's.

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(Self-scribbled)

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So what you think,is Saumya sound wrong???

We love Shivika that doesn't mean other people around them can't felt love or they are always wrong.

Sometimes one sided lover loves their love more efficient way then the two lovers.

If you still think Saumya is wrong then think what if Anika was at saumya's place???

Shivaay and Saumya were happily married couple and Anika loves him just like Saumya ...

Then I'm sure you love Anika because you love Shivika.

I'm not taking side of Saumya but just let you realize that not every time everyone who sounds wrong or criminal was actually a criminal.

It just that situation force them to do wrong things.

Hope no more bashing for Saumya and her love for Shivaay,we should respect other people's feelings,emotions.

Do comments.