My anxiety is tearing this mind apart
Looking over my shoulder
Looking over
Looking over
Many times over
I couldn't stand leaving this house of hell
Because it gave me a false sense of safety
Even through my mother's hateful screams
Even through the sound of my father's drunken stupor
There was nothing to this life
I go to school and endure this homophobic hell
What a beautiful time to be alive
I'm afraid of this life
Afraid to fall in love
For a fear of being hurt again
But then I saw your face
The anxiety
Looking over my shoulder
Every suicidal thought
Stopped
Everything
Stopped
And every anxiety I had calmed into this still pool
And your hair
Goddammit it's in your face
I want to fix it
But it's beautiful in a way
You made every single insecurity
Slowly
Slowly
Slowly
Fade away
But then when I saw that smile
That beautiful fucking smile
The way you laughed
And now darling my heart will melt
You're a million miles away
But somehow it seems like you're right here
Making sure I'm safe somehow
Protecting me
Protecting my mind from destroying myself
I'm falling in love
Falling
Falling
Falling in love
But these words will be empty in a few years
Empty promises
Empty love
Empty
Empty
Empty
And that day I'm sure I'll be dead
At least inside
I'll be sitting in a white room
With rubber walls
Shaking
Because no matter how hard I try
I'm never going to forget the feeling
The feeling that there was when you talked to me
The feeling I had when you said that I was everything to you
The feeling
This feeling
You're making me fall in love
And I'll enjoy every second of this massacre
