It's not that I want to kill myself
I just don't want to put effort into life. It's meaningless. We're in a complicated existence and I don't want it to be like this. I want to not have to worry about college and jobs. I want my childhood back because I never got one. That's why you call me immature. That's why you say I'm childish. I want to put on whatever I want and stop caring what others think. I want to go outside and play again. I want to stop getting the speech I need to make money. It's my fucking life. I'll do what I want with it. If that means getting a tattoo, respect it. If that means killing myself, let me dammit. If that means getting a million piercings, just make me take them out for important things. If that means I identify as a boy, treat me like one. If I'm starving let me do it in peace. I'll figure out I need to stop soon enough. Just let me live.
