These beautiful things come to horrifying endings
Yellowstone park was beautiful before the fire
The river was beautiful before the flood
The Badlands were beautiful before the discovery of oil and gold
Just like my heart was scar free before the pain of you
I bet you didn't know the wrinkles won't come out of the paper after you say sorry
I bet the bruises won't leave my skin after you say you love me
I bet you think you can fix it
I truly thought you could
I truly thought for years I could keep forgiving
And somehow
Some fucking way you'd change
It would go back to our honeymoon stage when you loved me!
I thought you'd stop hitting me!
I thought you'd stop telling me to die!
I thought I'd stop believing it.
I thought I could fix your night terrors.
I thought I could make you stop cutting yourself.
By saying I was wrong.
I'm bad!
I'm bad!
I'm fucking terrible!
Look at me!
Tell me I'm not a piece of shit!
But you never could
You sent me into this downward spiral
And when I crashed
I never wanted to die more
Yet.
After all this time
I still loved you.
Dammit I still loved you.
Halloween night.
All i wanted was for you to care about me.
I'd try so hard to get you to care.
And I tried killing myself again.
And I realized
You didn't care.
It tore me
My throat was on fire I couldn't breathe I couldn't speak
But I had to leave
And I'm so happy I did
Because now you see me with her
And now you're thinking what have I done
Because the fire destroyed me
But just like Yellowstone
Somehow it became better.
