200 pounds
60 overweight
Chronic pain
My life's at stake
I look in the mirror and I hear her voice
I will help you to be thin
What could it hurt?
I'll stop once it's lost
What could it do?
What was the cost?
180 pounds
20 lost
I'm dizzy
I'm blank
But not completely lost
She shows herself to me before every meal
Remember that I'm helping you
Her voice is harsh when I don't obey but I promise her I will
And I surrender to the monster
160 pounds
40 lost
I wanna be thin by my birthday
Whatever it may cost
Eat less
Her voice was always there
Through sadness
Through hurt
Through pain
I never wanted to leave the monster
I never wanted to feel that same shame
130 pounds
70 lost
Eyes sunk in
Completely immersed
The seizures never stop
The deafening white noise gets louder
The gap between my thighs get bigger
And I can see Her sneering
The monster made this life hell
And I don't wanna live it anymore
