Deception (Clexa)

To You

Dear Clarke,

If you're reading this, then you know I'm still alive. The years are getting harder, the days are getting darker without you. I've been shipped around the world and sold to different buyers. I try to keep track of time but whats the point anymore. Little food has been given to me. I've seen things, horrible things. I don't understand how I'm still living but then again I remember why I fight everyday. I fight to get back to you, just to see you one last time. I miss home, home was with you and Anya and annoying Raven. How are they? I miss them. Tell Anya I haven't forgotten about her. Tell her I miss our arguments and competitions. Raven, tell her I'd do anything to bicker with her again. And my mom, my sweet, sweet mom tell her thank you for she has raised me well and I couldn't have asked for anyone better than her. I don't think I have much longer in this world. I can feel somethings coming whether its good or bad I don't want to wait around for it. I hope you're happy Clarke, I truly mean it. If you have found love and serenity in another, if so, I will stop fighting. Don't worry about me beautiful, I'll be okay. I wish we had more time. More time to hold each other, more time to waste staring at your ocean blue eyes, more time to kiss the frown from your lips but most of all, more time to stay, with you.

I'm sorry that I couldn't write a happy ending for us. I'm sorry I couldn't feel your mind with wonderful things and tell you everything was going to be just fine. I couldn't do it because its unreal, so I gave you the truth, the truth is that you'll never see me again, I have accepted this. I have to accept this, because if I don't, I'll keep failing trying to get back to you. I hope one day you can go to sleep smiling without a worry in the world but Maybe one day you'll meet me at the same crossroad and we'll finally be together. Until then, this is goodbye. I've always have and always will love you, Clarke. I'm sorry that we didn't get our happy ending.

          

        Yours Truly,
                       
                           Lexa Woods