Deception (Clexa)

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"Listen you bald headed piece of shit. You're the reason I'm mad at my wife in the first place. I'm sure you convinced her not to tell me about Lexa being alive you were always sneaky I give you that. That's probably why your husband left-" Titus glared at Raven. "Watch your mouth little girl you might get more than what you bargained for." Titus spit back and Anya intervened to cut the tension. "Its not Titus's fault. I made my own decision and I'll take the blame for it if I have to." Raven laughed.

"Thats just like you. Take the blame for everything make yourself the fucking hero!" Raven stands up and claps "Congratu-fucking-lations you win absolutely nothing but lose everything including me" Raven goes to leave out the door but Anya stands and grabs her by the arm.

"You know what Raven everything I do never seems to satisfy you. I've tried and tried to love you but you just can't love me back, its impossible. Isn't it?" Raven turns to look at her wife and her eyes soften. "I'm so sorry for whatever I did to make you hate me but I can only give you me and I know I'm just not enough anymore. So if you want a divorce then thats what I can offer you if you'll be happy then its enough for me. I promise I'll be okay." Anya lets her wifes arm go and wipes the few tears that strayed from her eyes. Raven stands there for a moment looking at her wife in the middle of the Oval Office and thats when Clarke and Lexa walks in.

Raven runs past them out the door. Clarke and Lexa look at each other confused. "What the hell happened in here?" Clarke was the first one to speak. Anya sits back down on the couch. Titus just looks away saying nothing. "Okay? I'll go after after Raven and see what's wrong you stay with these two." Clarke only manages to get so far before Lexa tugs her back. "Actually I was thinking maybe I should have a talk with Raven. Its way overdue." Clarke looks at her. "Are you sure babe?" Lexa nods "Okay then I'll interrogate these two." Lexa kisses her cheek and leaves out the door.

"Now who wants to tell me what went down in here?" Clarke stands in front of Anya and Titus glaring at them.

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Lexa finds Raven sitting in the middle of the rose garden staring at the dark sky. Lexa slowly approaches her former best friend and takes a seat next to her. They sit there in silence for a while before Lexa finally speaks up. "The first day in my small cell it was night and very cold. There was a medium size sky window above my head. It was the only thing that gave me comfort for the weeks I stayed there then weeks turned into months. But it kept me sane by imagining that Clarke was staring out a window too thinking about me as I thought about her. After leaving that cell months later I missed it because it was better being in a cell than selling out my country. I kept telling myself it was for Clarke it was to get back to my family. I still wasn't entirely sure that was the reason until I finally got to see everyone again after all those years. Time is precious when you love someone and I know that you love Anya you've always have. If we ponder on everything we did that hurt them or everything they did to hurt us then we forget the reasons why we loved them to begin with and we end up losing them."

Raven turned to look at Lexa. "What if you want to lose them? What if you would do everything in your power to forget them. What then?" Raven snares. "You don't mean that Raven. You could never do that to Anya." Raven laughs. "How would you know? You haven't been here Lex. You come back into our lives like nothing changed well guess what we've changed. We all have, out of all people you should know this." Raven looked back at the sky.

"Of course I know that people change Raven. Hell my wife has changed so much but I love her and that includes loving every part of her changed or not she's still the love of my life and that's something that won't change." Lexa huffs. "You sit here in a sobbing mess that you caused all because Anya screwed up just this once to protect you. I'm fine Raven I'm right here! I'm alive but that's not why you choose to still be mad at her so what I want to know is why? Why is it when she loves you when she gives you everything in the world to make you happy why do you only give her hatred in return?"

"Because I'm not enough for her! Okay..." Raven puts her head in her hands. Lexa was stunned by this and put her hand on her friends back rubbing it soothingly. Raven lifts her head up and rubs her puffy eyes. "I wasn't mad at the fact she didn't tell me I was mad because she did it again. She saved the day, I can protect myself who is it for her to make that decision huh? I just for once don't want to feel like she needs to protect me from everything like I'm broken and needs to be fixed. I don't want to be her charity case Lex I want to be her wife and that means letting me in on everything even if it hurts me." Lexa knew exactly how she felt because she did the exact thing to Clarke and it wasn't a good feeling except Lexa became aware of it quicker than her sister has apparently.

"Then why don't you tell her that instead of sitting here and doing nothing?" Lexa asked. "You've met your sister. She's hard headed and stubborn. Your whole family is." They both laughed knowing that it's true. "At least try because I like having two happy sisters." Lexa smiles and Raven wraps a arm around her. "You'll never lose me loser." Raven laughs and Lexa smiles. "Now let's go mend the old family and keep the Titus insults to a minimum."

Raven stands and shrugs. "I can't make any promises." Lexa glares at her and Raven laughs and runs away as Lexa chases her.