You're such a Jackass (Chris Pontius love story

Chapter 13

All the oxygen in my body completely exited my lungs. Any feeling left in my body disappeared in thin air. They all smiled at me like we were the best of friends. Seeing Novak I ran over and hugged him tightly. He's the only person I actually kept in contact with. Considering he's the only one who had confidence in me. "I missed you so much Joey." he said into my hair. "I know I've felt the same way Novak." I said into his shoulder. Letting go we both smiled at each other and I turned around to face everyone else. "Mommy!!! Daddy!!! I yelled as I ran over to them pulling them in a death grip. My mom sobbed into my shoulder as dad nearly strangled me as he squeezed me in a great hug. They didn't release for a whole 10 minutes and I didn't mind one bit. All too soon they let go and I suddenly felt very empty without their touch. Turning around I faced the people that I once trusted with my life. They all looked ashamed and I knew my face held no emotion. I didn't know what to be feeling at this moment. Should I be sad or happy, angry or hurt, I had no clue. I guess when people say they have mixed feeling this is what they mean. Then all the anger came flooding back at top speed. My grimace turned to a deep frown and my eyebrows furrowed. I knew the only way I could forgive them is if I unleashed all the betrayal and anger I've felt the past couple of years. It needed to be done otherwise I'd forever hate them. "I've been here damn close 15 fucking minutes and I've yet to heard an apology from any of you douchebags!!!" I yelled at them. They all looked stunned for a minute from my sudden outburst. Being the bold person he is and my brother Bam was the first to stand up. "J I can't even begin to tell you how sorry we truly are, but it did get a little suspicious when there are pictures of you hugging some guy when you went home." Bam said calmly. "Fuck that, first off I'd never ever cheat on anyone and second you're my fucking brother you're supposed to stick up for me no matter what stupid shit I've done and you've never played that part, when my boyfriend was beating me a mere 7 hours ago were you there? NO!!! you weren't, you're never there. You weren't there when I was dancing on a pole and stripping just to get by were you.NO!!! When those girls in high school tormented me you were there, but not for me, no you were fucking every single one of them. I've had to stick up for myself my whole fucking life. It's like I never even had older brothers. All my friends had older brothers that would kick ass for them, but I was stuck having to beat up douche bags football players myself whenever they'd decide I was some cheap little bitch!! Yes, you help'd me get out of drugs, but I wouldn't have been there in the first place if you and Jess would've stepped up and helped me stay away from trouble." I cried out. I was sobbing and all I wanted to do was lay down and die in a dark and deep hole. "Joey I'm so sorry, I should've been there for you, I should've been the older brother you needed, I should beat the shit out of every guy that laid a hand on you, but you were always so strong willed I never thought you needed my help, but I forget that you're still a girl not a grown man. You can't kick a 200 pounds man ass when you're the size of a ten year old girl yourself and I can't bear to think that any man touched you in any way you didn't want." Bam said as he pulled me into a hug. I didn't respond at first, but I soon melted into it. Now it was time to hear from the others.