This chapter is dedicated to my best friend, ariella1D5SOS for her birthday!!! ilysm best frannnxoxo
I begin to feel suffocated by the water after a while, but as I go up to get some air all I see is Peeta's eyes staring right into mine. He doesn't let me go up for air until he can steal a kiss. We come up from the water and I hear Annie laughing from the beach. I go to get out of Peeta's arms but he just pulls me right back into them.
"Now where do you think you're going?"
"Well I thought you would want to see me
in the bathing suit you packed, but I guess I was wrong," I say teasing him. As soon as the words come out of my mouth, Peeta starts to take my shirt, well his shirt, off and just throws it and my shorts. They nearly reach the sand. I see his eyes wondering around my body and I feel my ears start to get red. I quickly nuzzle my head in his shoulder so he doesn't notice. I don't know how he finds me beautiful, I mean look at me. My body is covered in nothing but scars.
I try and push these thoughts away so I can think of a way to get Peeta back. I slide out of his arms and swim over to Flynn. Peeta is swimming after me, but I just keep swimming. I quickly whisper in his ear, "Do you wanna help me scare uncle Peeta?" Flynn starts splashing around so I guess that is a yes. I whisper the plan in his ear right before Peeta swims up to me, well under me. From under water he manages to pick me up. I know what he is about to do so I grab Flynn quickly so he can't throw me. Before I let him go I whisper in his ear 'the signal'.
"C'mon you are ruining all of the fun," Peeta says like a little kid.
"Awe, poor little Peeta." He goes in for a loss but I swim away. I splash twice to let Flynn know 'it's time'. Since there is a dock near by I swim closer, knowing that Peeta will follow. When he reaches me and I let Flynn do the rest.
After about a minute I don't hear a splash, so I go up, not only to check but I was dying for air. When I come up I see Peeta holding Flynn and they both are laughing hysterically.
"You thought you could get me back," he says as he tickles Flynn and I hear Annie laughing her head off over on the beach.
"Who is the fun ruiner now, Mister?"
Annie calls Flynn over to put on more sunscreen , but instead of swimming over he wants Peeta to throw him. I don't know why he would want to be thrown, but I guess when you are little you don't care.
"Still you," he answers after he throws Flynn.
"Really," is all I manage before Peeta's lips meet mime and I swear every time we kiss there is sparks. I know it may seem cliché but its the truth at least. Who knows how long see have been standing here, kissing? But all I know is it seemed like an infinity.
Our kiss is broken by a huge wave that knocks us off of our feet, literally. I find this the perfect chance to get back at Peeta for ruining my little prank. I swim around Peeta. I see him looking everywhere, well not everywhere or else he would have found me. After a while of fun I come up from under water and tap him ever so gently on the shoulder.
"What the hell," he almost screams.
"Hey, I'm just trying to have some fun."
"Oh well in that case, I'll have some fun to." Peeta says splashing me.
"Oh come on." He picks me up and spins me around. Times like these I wish I could freeze and live in forever. And times like these I come to believe everything will be like this, but I know its just not the truth.
Suddenly I get all sweaty and a pit in my stomach, and my heart is beating faster. stop it. nothere. notnow. I already know these anxiety attacks are going to kill me inside.
"You okay, love," Peeta asks so worriedly.
"It's nothing."
"C'mon, Katniss, I know you, and I know something is up with you."
"Don't worry about it now. Okay?" I say putting my hand on his face.
"Katniss..." I just lean in a give him a kiss trying to make him not worry.
"You guys sure do look comfy." Annie yells from the beach. Peeta and I just laugh at each other. I see Flynn crying and I wonder why. "We are gonna head back to the house, I'm gonna put him down for a N A P."
"Okay." Peeta and I both day in unison.
We spend the rest of the day on the beach-talking and mostly kissing and cuddling.
"Like I said my favorite part of Four, is when you agreed to marry me." Peeta says with a laugh and gives kiss on my head. His smile turns t oa frown. "Now what's the matter," Peeta asks worriedly.
"My favorite part is still looking into your eyes and back in the ocean." I say not ready to tell him about my anxiety.
"Don't change the subject." I don't answer and I can tell he is getting annoyed. I just cry into his shoulder and he just caresses my arm. Peeta doesn't say anything else, but I feel bad not telling him.
"The real reason I went to the Hospital today with Annie was because she took me." I can see the worry in his eyes so I look down at the sand, because I can't bear to look him in the eyes. "I have, uh, really bad anxiety." It sounds so awkward when I say it but I don't know how else to say it. I cry some more and Peeta just rubs my back and kisses me gently.
"I would've went with you, you know." Peeta says with hurt in his voice.
"I know," I whisper, "I feel guilty." I whisper then last part even lower.
"Don't. please." I continue to cry in his shirt some more. "What are we going do," he asks with worry.
"I wanted to talk to you first," I say between sobs. "Therapy or medication." I just barely manage to get out.
"Let's just go home and get some sleep and decide tomorrow. Okay?" I nod my head and Peeta swoops me up in his arms and he walks us back to the house.
We walk straight up to our room and just crash on the bed. But I feel so salty i have to take a shower. Just as i go to take my suit off, Peeta comes up to me, "You need to relax," he says. He goes and the bathtub on and my shoulders tense up. Peeta let's out a small laugh, but I just shake it off. I slip my suit off and jump right in the tub not caring if Peeta sees me. I don't know why I get so embarrassed in front of Peeta, I mean after all he is my fiancé. Peeta follows suit and he wraps his arms around my waist. I close my eyes slightly and whisper, "I'm sorry," not because I didn't taken him with me ton the hospital, but because I didn't tell him the real reason Annie took me to the hospital.
"Stop. You don't have to be sorry for anything, Katniss," Peeta says kissing the top of my head. yesIdo, I think in my head.
We have been in the tub for a while and my fingers feel like prunes. But before I get out I place a kiss on Peeta's lips. "I love you, always." I say.
"I love you, always plus one," Peeta says giving me a cute kiss on my nose. I wrap a towel around me a dry off quickly before I slide my silk robe on that Peeta loves. "You know, Katniss," he comes up and wraps his arms around me, "no matter how much you want to hide yourself from me, all of your efforts are going to fail, because you have the most beautiful body." I wrap my arms around his neck and he picks me up and walk back to the bed. We lay in the same position we sleep in everynight- Peeta's arms wrapped protectively around me. The sound of his heart is so soothing it puts me to sleep every night.
"I don't deserve you Peeta."
"Then why did you agree to marry me?" Peeta always know how to make me feel better.
"You love me. Real or not real," I ask.
"Real, a million times real. But you should already know the answer," he says kissing me on the cheek.
"I know, I just love the way you say it."
