My Own Love Story (COMPLETED)

Chapter 21

SAPPHIRE BELLATRICE

Astrid was probably just trying to get me out of here so I wouldn't get truly hurt. But I believe I must stay—I believe I must wound myself in want to wake up and accept things. I'm hopeful that through doing so, I'll be capable of moving on and forget about everything.

And, to be truthful, I sometimes dream for a chance. This may sound a bit silly, but I'm assuming that if Saiph decides to refuse him and abandon him, I'll be there to help him. We might still have a chance if they do not really end up together. I sound nasty and like a snake—but I guess this is just my wicked nature fighting to come out on top.

In the end, all I wish for is for my sister to be perfectly happy. And if her happiness entailed wounding me, that's all It is. I could take all of the suffering purely to see her smile.

"Did you know I was the person who helped you before? I couldn't let you hear me utter those three words to you because you passed out just as I was about to say it. Yet now that you know that person was me, I would like you to know that I love you, Saiph." Deretsong sabi ni Eos.

Saktong hinangin ang kurtinang nagkukubli sa kanila at kita ko ang ngiti sa mga labi niya matapos niyang sabihin iyon. Kita ko kung gaano kalungkot ang mga mata niya habang binibigkas niya ang apat na salitang 'yon.

He used to say those thoughts to me, both of which are fascinating and heartbreaking. Yet now I can hear him utter it to another woman.

"Dati, nasabi ko na 'yan sa'yo. Ilang beses pa nga eh." Sabi ni Eos saka siya tumawa nang mahina. "Oo mahal kita at hinding hindi ako magsasawang sabihin 'yon sa'yo. Kahit kaya mawala ako sa mundong 'to, lagi kong ipapaalala sayo na..." He paused for a momet as he stared into Saiph's eyes and continued, "mahal na mahal na mahal kita, higit pa sa tingin mo."

I noticed tears gently grow in his eyes, but he was fighting hard not to let it fall. He's holding it back by trying to smile and pretend to be actually okay.

"I had you back then, and I should have kept you close. But I think I was too confident you'd never abandon me. I took you for granted—I repeatedly lied, fooled you, cheated on you for momentary pleasure, hurt you, and witnessed you walk out the door." Sambit niya.

Hindi nagsalita si Saiph at deretso lang nakatingin sa kanya na kagaya ni Eos ay may namumuo ring luha sa mga mata niya na anumang oras ay nagbabadyang tumulo nang tuluyan.

And I felt the same way—as if there was a stone on my heart, and I couldn't breathe normally. With that much pounds, I was afraid I'd faint out. It was excruciatingly painful, yet there was nothing I could do. I didn't want to believe I had the power to take the stone off my heart. I couldn't—and I still can't.

"But I want you to know that I deeply regret every single one of those missteps. I regret it so badly that if you started asking me to stop now, I would." Mahinang sambit ni Eos.

My heart was beating so fast that I felt like I was running. I'm not quite certain why. I'm not sure if it is because of the agony I'm facing or because I'm afraid about what might come next.

"Will you honestly let me go if I dare ask?" Bigla ay tanong ni Saiph.

Lalapit sana ako pero kaagad akong pinigilan ni Astrid at inilingan, kaya tumigil ako.

Pero sa totoo lang ay gusto kong pumasok at makialam.

"I will." Nakangiting sagot ni Eos sa kanya saka siya tumango.

Will he truly let her go without such a fight to take?

"But, before you ask me to let you go, please know that when I lost you, I realized things. Your question was clarified to me. But you didn't give me a chance to try and prove to you that what I said was truthful because you walked away without taking a second look back." Sambit ni Eos.