Behind These Walls I Built

Chapter 13 - I'm afraid you can't break the bond

Chapter 13 – I’m afraid you can’t break the bond

     It has been five days since that day we… well, we kissed. I still didn’t know what had gotten into me that day, whatever it is, I regretted letting him kiss me. I mean, what was I thinking? I wasn’t thinking straight at all; I was completely out of my senses that day to even let him get close to me.

     Why in the world didn’t I do anything about it? Why did I just let him kiss me? Whatever it is, that isn’t what Dawn the vampire hunter, the girl who doesn’t let her guard down, the girl who knows that love is weakness – me, will do.

     If I could turn back time, I wouldn’t even let Ash get close to me in the first place. I would just keep my distance, but the saddest thing was, I couldn’t turn back time and change anything. The only thing I could do is replay what had happened in my mind, mentally change everything and put in the words, ‘if only’.

     Not only did we kiss, our minds were connected and Ash decided to throw in a word that completely knock me out cold.

     Soulmates.

     Plus, this happening to me, the one who would comment the person as ‘lifeless’ if they ever talked about it, it’s just completely ridiculous, stupid, crazy, absurd… real.

     I mentally hit myself for even thinking that, but even if I denied it, I knew way deep inside, it was true. Don’t ask me why, but I just somehow knew, it’s just right there whispering to me. The bond Ash and I have, it can’t simply be normal. How could you just go into someone’s mind like that? How did the sparks come along when it’s skin to skin touch?

     I think Ash may be right-

     Oh gosh, now I’m being ridiculous. Crazy.  So what if all of it is true, Dawn? So what if this soulmate principle is true, and Ash is your soulmate? What are you going to do about it?

     Nothing.

     I was glad my mind asked me those questions, because I finally came back to my senses. Even though all of it is true, when it’s not, I wouldn’t do a thing about it. So let’s just say I would do something about it, I’ll open up my heart and be with him, where would that lead me?

     Ash finding out that I’m a vampire hunter and vampires exist in the real world. That would be a funny sight to see, actually. I wonder what his reaction will be, since he’s living with what he think is a vampire-free world. He doesn’t even know that vampires are walking free, all around him. Humans have no clue at all. I wonder if he’ll cope with it…

     Since Ash came, I’ve been a foolish and dumb girl, he doesn’t even know that he was about to change me, he was just this close, but luckily I found out what he was doing to me before he really did change me. I’ve been so stupid to even let all of this happen.

     But…

     I know now, and since I can’t change the past, I’m going to do something about the present. I’ll think of ways-

     But I thought you said you weren’t going to do anything about it?

     Argh, yes, I wouldn’t, but I can’t necessarily just leave it be, I need to find ways to break the bond Ash and I have, because avoiding him and ignoring him these past few days was a failure. I would avoid him, but Aunt Charlotte and Aunt Sarah would be suspicious if I leave school without him.

     Actually, I don’t even know why we still walk to school together when clearly, Ash already knows the way back home. I think Aunt Sarah and Aunt Charlotte already think it’s a pattern, us walking to school together and back. So now, if I ever leave without him, I would face Aunt Sarah and Charlotte, shooting a thousand questions directly at me and I have to answer each and every one of them.